aRJay

2011-05-31T07:31:00.002-05:00

Woke up at 6am this morning, feeling terribly sad that I am leaving the States in less than one month... This panic state of mine was worsened with the fact that I still have one final performance , one early final and one regular final.. *yes, i am probably one of the VERY VERY few seniors who need to sit for regular finals, too smart already no choice lansi max*

I will miss Chicago, so much so much. Putting my stuff into the shipping boxes just made me disgustingly sad.

2011-05-18T00:22:00.002-05:00

Is your world spinning too fast? You've changed too much? Or I am moving too slowly?

2011-05-13T21:24:00.003-05:00

8.25 am - Woke up, and hit the "snooze" button on my alarm clock

8.30am - Woke up again, and analyzed that I had contributed enough for my Chinese class discussion for the past seven weeksand decided to skip that class (all this happened in 10 seconds)

10.30am - Woke up for the third time, and realized the weed smell in my room is quite unbearable

1.00pm - Had my FA discussion. Utterly unproductive

2.55pm - Missed the bus stop that I was supposed to get down. First time ever in my life

3.15pm - Walked home and decided to take a nap

6.45pm - Woke up for the fourth time and realized my audition is at 7.20pm

7.20pm - Reached the venue of my audition and immediately being called in for the once of mine to fame. But i forgot what I was supposed to sing because I was still in my sleeping mode. Worse still, I still had my very sleepy voice.

7.45pm - Realized that I am too late for a planned dinner and decided to just go home.

8.00pm - Ate my lean cuisine.

What a sad and pathetic day.

2011-05-12T01:45:00.000-05:00

So it's official. I received my air ticket itinerary this morning after some bummers. So I will be going home on 27th June 2011. Excited? To be honest, not at all. Well, yea, I am excited to see my family again. But other than that, (besides Gary Chaw's concert), nothing is really making excited to go home. I mean, I do want to go home eventually. But clearly, I am not really now. Argh, long time ago, my wise man told me, "Hey Jaysern, your four years in the States starts counting down once you step onto the American soil". And now, I am 45 days away from going back home, hopefully not for good. Rather, please don't make it be for good.

2011-05-10T01:53:00.002-05:00

Didn't I just say I am planning to close down this blog? I am back here again, again because of a bad midterm score. How many times must I tell myself that it is okay to relax and do "ok-ly" fine. I guess I just fail to hypnotize myself. It's in me, I guess. Looking from a bright side, it might not really a bad thing. Striving everything that I have to catch the tiny little glimpse of success doesn't sound to extreme after all. 4 more weeks Jay. 4 more weeks. Much more things to achieve in these 4 weeks.

Went out for a dinner with Bathelomew's parents. Again, was worried to be asked with that million dollar question, "Are your parents coming for your graduation?". I mean there is nothing much for me to explain, but I am just too tired about explaining everything.

When every word from you feels like a shooting star, zooming fast without giving any traces, how can i follow your steps? How?

2011-05-08T22:04:00.002-05:00

When I try to put in effort in trying to know u better, trying to show more concern, but you shunt aside without reciprocating... I mean, I don't expect anything, but at least, I've tried... So, that's the end?

2011-04-28T14:36:00.002-05:00

Crazy weather...

It's been raining so much these days. And I am sick now.

Severe sore throat for the past two days. So painful that it is impossible for me to swallow any solid food. Have been eating congee for the past 2 days thanks to the delivery from Sweet Station.

Bad week, bad week i reckon. :( Worse still, currently under serious financial crisis. :( Argh.. Hoping for a better month , please.

2011-04-26T17:46:00.003-05:00

Chicago... What happen to you?

So my news feed has been flooded with notices of how everyone is DONE with college. Like DONE, done. Well, I am blessed that I still have 2 more months to go. Not to ready to graduate yet i guess.

Anyway, Chicago weather has been pretty insane. Rain, sunny, thunderstorm, sunny within the past few hours. And the worse thing happens, I am sick now. Woke up in the morning feeling terribly sick. Sore throat, runny noise. No fever though. Went to golf class and felt terribly bad. Not because I wasn't feeling well, but because i play super badly. Seriously, i always thought golf is so easy but it is definitely not the case. Yes, laugh all you may. I am those guy who swing the golf club but the ball remain motionless on the ground.

My blog is getting dryer and dryer. Yes, i am thinking of closing down my blog. This time for real. :)

2011-04-20T21:45:00.002-05:00

Hungry

I always thought that I am like kind of different because i do not really go for gadget stuff as much. But recently, I have proven myself terribly wrong because for the past three weeks, I have been eying on so many gadgets that is blowing up my mind. What's wrong with me? It is pretty much because I am influenced by friends around me. The Ipad 2*thanks to Nao*, the Iphone 4*thanks to MYeow and Kuek*, GF2 *er, ok, this one can only blame myself*, and Macbook Pro *thanks to all Macbook user on campus, ihateyou for making me want to have one myself*.

All these Apple gadgets are so over priced. And my sponsor are not going to give me any more money because they have paid me my last ever allowance in USD. The next I receive money from them will be in Ringgit. Yes, Ringgit. Ipad, Iphone4, Macbook, GF2.. Hungry for them, but no money for the food.

*i am so free that i actually did two posts today*

2011-04-20T17:50:00.002-05:00

Going back home..

Honestly, two months ago, I was like contemplating with my decision to go home *well, not really contemplating since I don't really have a choice* Being away from home about five years allows me to handle a lot of things by myself. The ultimate freedom that i have been receiving is definitely something one of the few things that i cherish the most.

Of course, someone told me before that the only reason that you are going back home in Malaysia is for your family. Yes, i do not deny that fact even till now. But then, recently, I have been actively reading up some activities in Kuala Lumpur that kinda excite me quite a bit. Hip-hop dance classes, acting opportunities, singing opportunities are things that make me feel that going back home is not really a bad thing.

Yesterday, i finally bought my ticket to watch Gary's concert 2011 at Putra Indoor Stadium. I was thrilled yesterday like a little boy given a candy. I always tell everyone that, before i die, i will want to watch these following concerts LIVE! Ok, it doesn't have to a concert, a live performance will do.

~~1 - Jay Chou~~
~~2 - Stefanie Sun~~
3 - Jacky Cheung
~~4 - IL Divo~~
~~5 - Britney Spear~~
6- Gary Chaw
7 - Charice
~~8 - Eason Chan~~

So, I am really that excited when i clicked the "purchase" button. (first time being so happy to click the purchase button without feeling any guilt)

Ok, so i am going home soon. The question now is, when should i leave the States? I am thinking of leaving the weekend after my brother leaves the States. But then, i feel like that will not be enough time for me to reminiscence the final few moments of my stay in the States. But then, if I don't have a furniture in my room and etc, what is the point for me to stay anyway. Might as well go home and enjoy being treated like a King back home. Muahahaha..

Ok, lame signing off.

2011-04-14T23:54:00.003-05:00

Young man now...

I posted this facebook status update few minutes ago,

十一年前，爱上了那一首《很好》，是一年后，又听着首歌。。。
感觉不同了，但是感动依然还在。。。
可能当时还是small boy, 现在真的是时候做个young man了。。。
毕竟也快要毕业了，不能再像小孩一般的幼稚。。。

It was a long comment. And no joke, after typing this comment, i stared at it for almost 10 seconds.. It actually means a lot to me. For the past 22 years, I have to admit I am rather childish in many ways. Yes, there is totally no wrong to be childish, but i guess we need to be childish in a "young man" way, not a "small boy" way..

I guess I finally have to accept this thought as the date of graduation is approaching. Compared to a lot of kids in Chicago, I realize I am still kinda like a little boy - also probably because people treat me like one since I am so miniature here. But compared to many peers back home, I am definitely way more matured. This is a painful and narcissistic confession, but I really think so.

But i still want a change. I am going into another big phrase of my life. Acting like a little kid will not do me any good i guess. Pre-graduation depression. How?

2011-04-13T21:59:00.004-05:00

It's now.....

Don't even try asking me how did i come up with that title, because I really don't know.

Just slightly after dinner, a strong thought came through my mind. Must all effort put in be appreciated? Rather, is reciprocation somewhat important in the society? If yes, to what degree?

Recently, I put in a lot of effort in doing things for many people. Say helping people with the projects, helping friends to purchase things from USA, helping people to buy air tickets, and the list goes on. But somehow when I sit down and think about it, most people take my help for granted - thinking that it is only natural for me to help. No no, don't get me wrong. I am not complaining or what's not ~~ok, maybe a little~~ But the thing is, I feel like it will be nicer if all these effort are appreciated in any way. Even a simple "thank you" will do. Really. =(

Anyway, here's another milestone of my cooking career.

#1: Asam Pedas Ikan Tilapia

Look's good? More to come~

2011-04-10T13:21:00.002-05:00

It feels great to be a senior...

When everyone is cramming to take "more important classes" during their last quarter, I've decided to make my last quarter as chill as possible. Thus, I only registered for three classes and one PE class. And out of my three classes, only one can be really considered as a class because the other two being a physical performance class and Chinese class.

Anyway, it feels quite good now because workload aint that heavy, allowing me to have more time to further explored this beautiful Windy City. Esther visited me yesterday, and I brought her around. It's always nice to bring a Malaysian around Chicago, although it often reveals that I am not very familiar with the history of this city.

#1: With Esther and our deep dish pizza!

Today's weather is amazingly good... Warm and not very windy! Maybe i should go out for a jog since I am getting fatter and fatter these days...

2011-04-06T14:19:00.002-05:00

Elk Groove Open 2011

Last year, I took part in this Open tournament and had a disastrous outing. This time, it was much fruitful.

I partnered Uncle Tim again. This time, we did much better than before. We lost to eventual champion and managed to upset the tournament 10th seed to proceed to plate final. We were so close to create another upset against the 8th seeded pair. But nonetheless, it still feels really amazing to nail one silver medal at least.

#1: My silver medal

After this tournament, Tim brought me to a Japanese sushi shop and treated me with "Dragon Combo". I was never a raw food lover, thus fusion sushi is definitely my favorite when it comes to Japanese food.

#2: Dragon Combo

Through this tournament, I really learn to appreciate badminton even better. In the past, I have to admit that badminton is just a tool for me to flaunt my talent. Or rather, a tool for me to prove that I can be good in both sports and studies. Seems like coming to Chicago really changes some part of myself.

2011-04-06T00:03:00.002-05:00

Jay,

Your movements exuded confidence..
You must be someone who has very good self confidence..

-Prof

Something that I haven't heard for a while. Pretty awesome start to my last quarter in UChicago.

2011-03-26T13:10:00.002-05:00

I'm in Berlin now... the weather here is rather cold... very cold in fact! But oh well, Germany has never been in one of my top vacation spot to begin with... ha ha!

Anyway, i wanna rant about something ... let's call this a word to a friend...

Dear friend, i never know your are so farking short tempered, unreasonably selfish, mentally unbalanced, and lots more... i really hope you do realize this and change, if not, you'll be the most pathetic person on earth... you are now always associated with lameness , as everyone just love doing so behind your back... i sincerely, pity you!

2011-03-23T16:14:00.002-05:00

Super angry... Europe trip affected due to some kind of worms in the world... fuck off!

Anyway, Greece is such a pretty place! But will be nicer if some kind of worms don't annoy me!

2011-03-18T01:39:00.002-05:00

On my way to London..

#1: Looking tired with ugly acne-fied face! :(

Recently, my face tends to be very sensitive. Very prone to breakout. Fml. Haiy, why am i having so sensitive face. To make things worse, I have less than 4 hours of sleep everyday due to the finals week.

But hey, i will punch you if you say i am ugly. Anyway, I am on my way to London , currently transiting at Boston. Feeling pretty excited because all the best thing is there ( great Malaysian food, best friends, Malaysia buddies and etc).

Ok, i realized the picture is kinda not very flattering. But hey, is 2.46am now and i still have 7 freaking hours to my London flight! Although is really tiring, i think it will be worth it! It will be!

2011-03-13T19:19:00.002-05:00

Vs Senioritis...

Fighting very hard against senioritis now...

2 more finals, one on Tuesday and the other on Thursday..

Then I can officially call myself an Economics major, something that I would never thought of 5 years ago..

But I am really losing the motivation to study now.. not even excited to do anything, albeit I'm leaving for Europe in 4 days..

I think I need some time , and some space.. To pull everything together, and ace the two finals..

Senioritis, I would subdue you! I will..

2011-03-11T14:58:00.002-06:00

Worried...

I was supposed to post my Spanish dinner experience yesterday night but then decided not to do so after reading all those devastating news regarding tsunami and earthquake that happened in Japan. Worse still, recently, I am rather close with two Japanese. Ayaka's family is from Miyagi, the place where the tsunami hit Japan. She is worried now, and so do I. All means of communication are cut in Japan, so there is no way to contact her family members now. Keeping my fingers crossed that everything is fine in Japan.

This morning, I read through those news feed that appeared on my Facebook. Videos that people posted up really made me feel sad enough. What happen to the our Earth? I have to admit, I was kinda worried after watching the "Mayan 2012 Video". Is the world really end? And i really to face this abrupt end? I know it sounded childish enough, but hey, no one really know what is going to happen in year 2012!

Praying that everyone is safe and sound albeit the natural disaster. Please. I was quite influenced by the news of Sichuan earthquake and i doubt i can take another blow.

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Anyway, since I already posted all the pictures of my Spanish dinner to photobucket, I guess I will just post it here to sooth the devastated emotion of mine now.

Ever since I came back from Spain, I didn't really get the chance to eat any Spanish food. And yes, surprisingly I miss those food very very much. So I went online and found this restaurant that is supposed to be "Chicago's Best Kept Secret" - Café Iberico.

Here's what we ordered.

#1: Paella Iberico (Seafood Rice)

#2: Clams in White Wine Sauce

#3: Calamares ala Plancha (Grilled Squid)

#4: Croquetas de pollo

#5: Patatas Ali-Oli (Potato in Garlic Mayonnaise)
Should have ordered Patatas Bravas but Aya-san couldn't eat spicy food

#6: Sangria con vino tinto (this is a must)

The funniest part of this dinner is, the restaurant was playing a documentary on traveling in Malaysia. So it was kinda funny to see how the Spaniards talking about Malaysia right in front of me. They were like, "Really, Malaysia is so pretty? I thought there are only jungles!" .. Also, some said this in Spanish "Muy bonita, muy bonita!!"

I guess Malaysia is indeed a pretty country with its own problem. Nonetheless, I am supposed to be really relieved that I am a Malaysian because we are free from most of the natural disaster.

2011-03-08T02:03:00.002-06:00

Is it because....

It is because i am leaving this wonderful city soon ?

Recently, I realize Chicago is effing pretty, a really stunning city..

I realize my friends here are pretty mad awesome..

I realize I don't staying here for 10 more years..

I realize..

I am not ready to go home..

2011-03-06T02:41:00.002-06:00

Live Life to the Fullest...

Can we? I have been hearing people saying this a lot. But it is definitely easier said than done. But true enough, as you grow older, you start to appreciate this phrase even more.

Recently, I have been receiving a few news , some sad and some not so bad and some happy. Pardon me for not able to disclose here. But the call that morning was definitely alarming. It made realize sometimes, taking things easily is the way to treat problems.

I don't see anything wrong if ~~spending money~~ i mean buying things is your way of finding relief.. If that makes you happy, why not? As long as you don't regret buying that thing, it is totally fine.. Life is too short for us to ponder over sad and heart wrenching moments in life.. Call it philosophical, i guess not.

#1: Baileys on a Friday night

I sincerely apologized with the ridiculously random post i had here. It's not because I do not want to elaborate more, I just don't find the need to do so.

Regardless, readers , strangers and everyone out there, live life to the fullest..

2011-03-04T15:13:00.003-06:00

Why?

This picture probably describe my Friday blues right now. Week 9 is officially over and I am so glad about it. It's has been a long dreadful week and I am so happy that I got through it without much hassle ~~except several SOS i am so stressed emails~~ Now, i just have to do some wordings edit to my final environmental economics research paper and complete the pay and performance pset. phew..

Anyway, yesterday did my final showing of performance installation. It was probably the worse show ever I have participated in. The emergency alarm went off for like 10 minutes DURING the show. How awkward is that. No to mention, for the first time in my 17 years of education , I shouted at a freaking retarded idiotic class mate and slammed the door! And you know what, the teacher actually thanked me for doing so and all , i mean EVERYONE in that class were so thankful that i actually did that!

Honestly, i cannot imagine such idiotic people do exist in UChicago. Ok, enough of her. But then, this quarter, i did have a lot of fun working with other people in the class. :) but last quarter with Pam, i will definitely miss this class.

2011-03-02T00:15:00.002-06:00

I am sure this blog requires some decent updates. But I am just too busy to do so. Week 9 has been kinda packed for me because I have to finish up so much work!

1 - Environmental Economics Research Paper Presentation (checked)
2 - Swan Lake Critique Response ( 50% done)
3 - Environmental Economics Research Paper Report (90% done)
4 - Pay and Performance Report
5 - Video Recording and Editing for Performance Installation (checked)

Should have more proper updates with pictures. soon. i guess.

2011-02-15T02:10:00.003-06:00

Is already already mid Week 7.. And it still feels like Week 1 to me, probably due to the snow days, endless weekly performances, and easy classes.. But although classes are relatively easy this quarter, workload is kicking in.. 1 final presentation on Week 9, 2 public performances (dance and performance) on Week 9 *come support*, 1 final report on Week 10, and 2 finals on Week 11. Kinda nervous about it because I ain't prepared at all for any of them. But once I am done with this quarter, I will be done with Economics requirement and fly to Europe for Spring break.

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Oh ya, tonight is Valentine's Day. B.N.O. decided to call for a dinner plan at the Pub. So we went to the pub for drinks and wings and table curling. It was a nice outing. Realized that how my friends were so childish made me feel 10x better about myself. :p

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Retarded Regents overcharged my checking account and I paid USD 34 for the overdraft. I am gonna make complain tomorrow! Ok, super random post.

Kthnxbye~

2011-02-14T01:09:00.002-06:00

Can we ignore just ignore?

Recently, friends around me have been having some problems this issue of "can-we-ignore-what-people-thinks-about" us or our partner or our best friends and etc. you get the idea. I seriously gave this question a deep thought despite knowing the answer better than anyone else.

For me at least, the answer to this question is a big no. I sincerely believe a human's value is constituted on how everyone's view on him/her. So even if i value someone highly, he/she is still a condemned person if the entire society rejects him. *of course, there will be special cases, but let's not go to that*

Using my own example, so one of my best friend's mum kinda dislikes me. Why? Well, I rushed my best friend to decide on whether he wanted to join me for a vacation because of the ever rising air ticket price. Then, another huge blow came up when an air ticket that I helped buying for the best friend was voided and we ended up buying a new one. My friends mum gave me a very very very serious and stern look at the airport which i still vividly remembered till now.

Well, i find this a serious issue because all these while, I have been having this "good boy" image which all parents love. Seriously, i dont think any parents dislike me *at least from what i know*. *super lansi* Back in my primary and high school days, friends around me used my name a lot so that they could come out from the house.

Anyway, back to the story. Although those issues happened few years ago, it kept bothering me even until now. I kept wondering why is his mum so mad *presumably towards me*? Did my friend actually explain to his mum? Did he tell his mum poor people like me cannot afford to wait till last minute to buy air ticket? Did he tell his mum that I did check the air tickets before buying, and beg him to check as well before purchasing the voided air ticket? And if he did, why did his mum still so mad at me?

At one point, this bothers me so much and so, I went to talk to another friend of mine. He said, "Dude, just ignore it. Is not even your fault, why should you even be bothered about it?" True enough, I can just easily ignore that since I probably wont be seeing his mum anymore for the rest of my life. But I just couldn't do it. I could not pretend that nothing happen. I just can't.

Then, recently, a friend came to chat with me on facebook. And started to say some negatives things about my close friends, saying how they "betrayed" me and etc. The funniest part is that, another friend came to tell me the same thing the next day. So it makes me wonder, should i believe these rumors or believe those whom i call close friends? Choosing to ignore is definitely not an option for me. But i choose to believe my close friends. I know, ironic i am.

OK, done with this long post. Phew.. Feels so good now after typing everything here.

2011-02-11T04:41:00.003-06:00

I am very tired now. Done with midterms. Finally. It sucks big time because i feel i could have done a better job. Just came back from Adrian's birthday dinner (Richard's too) / B.N.O. - Boys Night Out. Talked a lot about relationship, so serious discussion until I felt that I was in a humanities class. Then continued my drama watching. And ended the night having some argument with a friend. fml. I am already being very patient. Whatever. Reverse psychology never works on me.

Looking forward for my trip tomorrow to H Mart. =) Never know going to a supermarket can be so exciting. Well, probably that is because I am going to a Korean Supermarket.

2011-02-07T00:46:00.002-06:00

Is White Happy Chinese New Year..

This year's Chinese New Year is a little bit different for me because blizzards and snow storms visited Chicago. It was the third worst in the history and it was indeed crazy. I was almost being blown off by the storm, lucky to be saved by the snow blower man. Well, it was kinda embarrassing to have a guy pulling you jacket into the apartment (just like how your mum pulled you into the house when you tried sneaking out to play, lol)

#1: Picture taken after the snow storm

Anyway, despite the crazy dinner, I celebrate my CNY's eve with Helen, Ploy, Ji-Sook, and Jane. We had hotpot for dinner, and realized all five of us came from different countries and I was the only guy that night.

#2: With Jane, Helen and Ploy (left to right)

On the first day of new year, the seniors supposed to go to Chinatown for DimSum brunch. However, one of the cab that my friends took got stuck in the snow and they decided to cancel the brunch plan. *really bad way to start the new way whey* So instead of a grand brunch, only four of us ended up going to the Brunch.

#3: With Nao, Vincent and Ayaka

At night, I decided to cook since I never really cook for Chinese New Year. So I tried making my signature dish, Malaysian Curry Chicken and also Sambal Tumis Udang.

#4: Chicken Curry

#5: Sambal Udang

#6: So much food for only three people

I didn't do much for Day 2. I stayed home to watch some CNY shows and went out dinner with a bunch of people at Saint Alps. Then, we came home to play Mahjong for 6 freaking hours. It was definitely fun yet tiring experience.

Day 3 was filled with cultural activities. After watching the movie "Black Swan", I was so into watching the real ballet show. And so happen that State Ballet of Russia is having a two days performance tour of "Swan Lake" in Chicago! I bought the ticket and went to watch the dance with Ayaka and Ji-Sook. And yeash, they are really amazing. Never know watching a ballet dance can be so entertaining.

Then I rushed back to Hyde Park to perform for PanAsia UChicago CNY Snow. Well, honestly, the settings for the entire event were really bad as the performances were ... very much unprepared. People left so quickly that there were barely any people left at the end of the show. I sang a kinda not very auspicious song "安静" by Jay Chou. Obviously, once i sang, the crowd went really quiet. I am not sure if it is a good thing, since some said i shouldn't have sang such a sad song for CNY event. Well, maybe that is quite true then.

Anyway, this pretty much sums up my CNY experience this year. Kinda boring, nothing much happened this year. I have a presentation, a mid term and a pset due next week. So i guess CNY officially ends now. Wishing all of my readers:-

步步高升，学业进步，恭喜发财，赚钱赚到“兔”，越来越美丽/英俊！

发啊！

ps : i just finished watching the much anticipated Glee post Superbowl show. It was disappointing. Maybe i have too high expectation for this episode!

2011-02-02T11:53:00.002-06:00

White Chinese New Year Eve...

So Chicago is currently experiencing one of the worst snow storms in history. I am lucky to escape from this storm as I fled back home as early as 2pm yesterday and managed to stock up some food home so that i will have a "prosperous new year".

And as usual, UChicago being "uncommon" didn't cancel the class until everyone started to go rampage towards the administrative people. We had a facebook account set up to state our dissatisfaction, saying that the school is trying to kill the students. We have students writing template emails and asked all the students to send the email to President of UChicago, in which many of us did. We also have brilliant students who updated the wikipedia page on"Thunderstorm" (already changed back to normal) to tell UChicago to spare us.

And finally at 2.03am, the school gave in and decided that it is suicidal if they don't cancel the classes today. So yay, I got one extra holiday today. But can I ask for one more tomorrow.

20 inches of ice. 50 miles per hour wind. And a warm heart wanting to celebrate Chinese New Year.

#1: Reynolds Club

#2: Buried Car, or can u even find the car?

#3: When the lake, sky, park, roads, cars all combine together..

Although the weather is bizarre enough, Ayaka and I decided to experience this one of a lifetime event. And so, we ran out of Regents to enjoy the storm. for 2 minutes. and we realized it was really a retarded thing to do.

#4: Crazy duo

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!

2011-01-31T01:02:00.003-06:00

My mum used to say...

"Eh Sern, don't sing all the time. Don't waste your time! Study hard and earn money! Singing won't earn you any money"..

I used to believe in what she says..

But now, I think I have to disagree with her..

#1: One of the few ~~many~~ payments i got from my performances

Although it is not big money, but for the amount of time I spent on stage, I think it is worth quite a lot. By saying this, I am not trying to boast or anything *super defensive, but I am just trying to say, singing does earn me money. Just to make a point to show my mother. LOL.

Thanks for all the chances given to me! Thanks! I really need some fund for my Europe trip this March.

Any bookings, please call 773-5748633. :p

2011-01-29T03:02:00.002-06:00

Quiet and nice...

Stoned for quite a bit throughout the day..

Read the "Little Book of Currency Trading" and find myself quite interested with its content..

Finally, purchased my air ticket to London via YSPP..

And of course, the night was amazing..

Went out with Helen and Jane for dinner at Lao Beijing..

Had an amazing catch-up session.. Its always nice to have this kind of session with friends whom we have not met for some time despite staying in the same building..

After dinner, stayed at home to do some singing practice.. As usual, my voice is cracking again..

And now, I am watching Li Na against Kim Clijsters now.. Although I don't really care who wins the tournament (since they are not my favorite), but being Asian, I couldn't help to be happy when Li Na won a point. But i doubt i will want to finish watching this..

Nights..

2011-01-28T00:47:00.002-06:00

Cinderella's Sister Story...

For some reason, I feel like the show is happening in my real life..

Things that used to be mine will be gone from me..

Hopefully, this is just a dream, a false dream that never happen..

Please wake me up..

2011-01-27T01:57:00.005-06:00

I am in a mess...

So i just found out, my two favorite teachers in UofC is not teaching next quarter, meaning I am losing two of my "default" classes. fml.

I saw a very well planned air flight route online at a very tempting price, but i went for dinner instead of buying it. Now the flight is gone. And I have to go trouble everyone again to bug AA.com for the miles transfer stuff.

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On contrary, recently, I feel really happy with some of the little things that happened around me. So in my performance class, I am happy that the teacher finally recognized my effort and talent in class. ~~meaning i should be able to nail an A again~~ Well, being a performer, I strongly believe that being appreciated is more important than anything else. Ok, maybe monetary/material stuff can be quite important too, but who is a performer if he/she doesn't get appreciated by his/her audiences?

And with my dance class, today we moved on the choreographing a dance for our dance partner. I got Chae as my partner. To be honest, I was quite worried to be with her because I didn't know if what I choreographed will even make sense to her. But luckily, her "i-can-do-anything" attitude make me feel much more confident in telling her the movements i wanted. And alas, I believe Prof Jarett is impressed with what I did *super lansi/arrogant. I mean, Chae just looked like another person when she danced "my dance". Super touched till want to cry after looking at her performance *super emotional. rofl.

111 days to graduation. fml. i-dont-want-to go-home-yet. I mean there is no reason for me to go back except family. Ok, sounded super un-filial. OK, another attempt. Family is the only reason for me to go back!

2011-01-25T01:47:00.002-06:00

Oh，on local dailies again.. :p

http://www.chineseofchicago.com/Content.aspx?nid=1659

2011-01-25T00:25:00.002-06:00

For once...

All this while I have been a good boy..

I think out of my entire 16 years of school life, I probably only skipped about 20 classes..

But for once, I am doing this for myself...

I am planning to skip one whole week of Spring quarter..

Just to enjoy the most beautiful place on Earth...

Keeping my fingers crossed that everything is gonna work out to be fine..

I am excited, but not before i booked my air tickets..

I have been listening too much about these few places since I was five..

Black tulips.. Here I come..

2011-01-23T22:35:00.002-06:00

3rd Week...

Again, what a week. Time just flies so fast, waiting for nobody. Buddy left on Thursday, leaving me 2 boxes of Golden Throat Candy and a loaned finance calculator. So now 2707N is officially scattered, but in return I have Ayaka to accompany me. I mean it always feel better to cook for two people instead of cooking for oneself.

Saturday was a bizarre day. In the noon, I went to Ratner for my KSO Dance practice. Up till now, I still do not feel connected with the dance despite how hard I tried. At 2.00pm, I rushed to Ida Noyes Hall to do a sound check. At 5pm, I went back to Ida to prepare the Malaysian booth for International Food Festival. At 5.35pm, I rushed to Northwestern to perform for the Chicago CNY Gala Night (apparently, a tv station came and this show will be broad-casted during CNY). At 7.54pm, rush back to UChicago for IFF performance.

On the way back home, everyone called me to rush me as the organizer decided to start the performance earlier. I was panicked, so do the driver. He started to drive even faster, going at 98-110 miles per hour on Lake Shore. Then I decided to call off my UChicago performance because i guess my life worth more. So we arrived at UChicago at 8.35pm.

When I was there, audience were almost gone. But well, I still went up the stage and finished off my song. Not a big deal singing in front of empty audience. Ha ha~

"I am not a quitter"- arJay

ps: For thos of you who are interested in watching my performance ~~or still not bored of them~~, I will be preforming at UChicago CSSA CNY Celebration (6pm at I-House) and probably UChicago PanAsia CNY Celebration (7pm at Hutch).

2011-01-19T02:34:00.002-06:00

What a week..

So last week has been a very tiring yet memorable week for me! I finally did Kuvia after being in this school for 4 years! Kuvia is basically a tradition oof UChicago where students gathered at the school gym at 6am every morning to do sun salutation exercise. It's crazy and intense i know. But I did it - all for the sake of UChicago experience!

#1: Day 1 of Kuvia -With buddy
(supposed to jog there, but ended up taking cab cos it was too cold)

#2: Day 2- with Cheramie
(we jogged, and realized it was kinda bad idea)

#3: Day 5- Yay, done with Kuvia! With Claire and buddy

#4: Day 5 - Saluted to the sun

#5: As seniors, we were supposed to take off on article after one cycle. But obviously,
I make a full use of my kiddy face and pretended to be first years, wtf

#6: With the Polar Bear, which the head and body doesn't really match

Many asked me what did i get for doing this Kuvia?
Well, I got the very exclusive t-shirt given to only students who completed 5 days of Kuvia. But that is not the main point. The main point is I managed to discipline myself to wake up at 5am every morning, pulled buddy out of this bed, and went to school for this freaking thing. It's something like fulfilling a promise to myself *super chem plus lansi. Also, it's all about U Chicago experience. I don't want to be like most kids here who never do the fun stuff in U Chicago, especially since I am already a senior! *super defending.

So my morning was occupied with Kuvia. At night, I spent on average 5 hours a night to practice for my CUSA Dance. We danced to Super Junior M's Super girl and it was quite a success. At least, everyone who saw me thought i danced really well *blushing.

#7: With my dance group+ martial arts sifu Andy

Also, Xiao Qian visited me! It's really weird but nice at the same time to meet Batu Pahat-ians in Chicago! I brought them to Saint Alps and glad that they actually liked it. In fact, I don't think I failed in any attempt to promote Saint Alps. She was here for a working traveling program, and Chicago being one of her stops before going back. Envy, I also want to do something like that upon graduation.

#8: Nice gathering with Malaysians

Ok, the end of my busiest week. But as I've updated on my facebook status, this new week will be kinda sad because buddy is leaving Chicago. He is going back to Hong Kong for Chinese New Year (ok la, he deserved it since he never spent CNY and home for the last 8 years, poor boy :p ). And after CNy, he will be going to China to improve on his Mandarin and flew to Paris for his study abroad. And the next we meet will be during graduation :( ...

2011-01-17T03:47:00.003-06:00

The end of the crazy week...

I am so not motivated to blog anymore. Probably the craze for blogging has been fading off , but hopefully this is due to my crazy week that i experienced.

So it's finally over now (hidden meaning). Done with Kuvia, Done with my first ever public dance performance, Done with 2 psets. All done.

Next up is the departure of buddy Wil. 4 years of buddy buddy seems to reach its end. Yes, I am pessimist who doesn't believe in "Keep in touch" or "See you again".

Then my never ending paid and free performances around Chicago. (so far, I am pretty much booked for 4 consecutive Saturdays) Well, maybe i should take it as a good start for the year, and a good start to my dream path of being a singer.

Thanks to everyone who came for CUSA Show and liked my performance. Hopefully I managed to prove something out of my performance, I can do both singing and dancing. And can study pretty well too. Recently, I have been having this urge to break all kinds of stereotypes, say Asians are nerd, good students can't be artistic, Asian don't hang out with others, and etc. Gotta prove them wrong! (although well, in general it is quite true though)

Well maybe I just don't want to be classified as one stereotypical Asian. Yea, that's probably it.

2011-01-13T08:14:00.002-06:00

I am busy...

This week I am freaking busy.. because..

I am doing crazy Kuvia for the sake of UChicago experience..

I am busy rehearsing for my dance for CUSA Show..

I am busy with my work.. reports and etc..

I am busy..

2011-01-10T03:24:00.004-06:00

A Missing Sunday...

It went missing without me realizing it. It was rather eventful, went to Westmont for Taiwanese brunch, went to Costco for the first time, went to Chinatown for groceries shopping, filled complain to Topman and finally received a full refund (yay), listened to Athena's performance of "Hulushi", packed my stuff in room, decided to do Kuvia this year, and eventually slept at freaking 9.30pm. And now I am wake at 2am, not knowing that to do because I need to wake up at 4.55am.

Sometimes, how i wish the pace can be slower.. Really, I took me quite some time to actually typed out all this because I just find it hard to keep track on these things that happened to me, be it planned or last minute decision.

It's been the end of first week of 2011. Whether I like it or not, I guess the first week didn't go as well as expected. It wasn't bad though, just I thought 2011 will start on a higher note. Hoping for a much better second week. But i am freaking doing Kuvia this year, how to have a great second week when i need to wake up at 5am every morning, go to campus at 6am , and do aerobics with a group of crazy people in Henry Crown? For the sake of UChicago experience, I am willing to give it a shot! (I was told that one of the greatest things where people misses out as a UChicago Students is taking part in Kuvia, so boo for those who never did Kuvia before. LOL)

2011-01-08T03:53:00.002-06:00

She moved in..

I am not gonna be all alone after all. Ayaka moved in today to my apartment because she hated the apartment that she rented. So yay, I have Ayaka to accompany me during this cold and scary winter.

Snow storm visited Chicago again today. But as usual, it doesn't really affect me because I am pretty much an otaku. But no-no, I ain't those Japanese kind of Otaku, more of a Chinese one because I don't really watch Japanese manga or anime. Dropping Chinese is definitely a good choice because now, I don't have to go school on Mondays and Fridays.

And probably for the first time this quarter, I went out of my room for a social event. I first went to Greg place for dinner, and moved on to Vince Ang's house for curry laksa and ended the night at Jimmy's for some drink. It was nice hanging out with these "old friends" only to realize that we are all in our senior year , except for Adrian Low.

After a long debate too, my Paul Frank bedding is here. Woahhahahahaha~ Super nice.

Ahh.. my blog is getting to dry without any pictures. Well, one of my new year resolutions is to have regular postings about my final year in the States and the transition from being a student to a worker. Thus, there will be more thoughts involved rather than plain bimbotic pictures. LOL.

2011-01-06T00:48:00.002-06:00

Third Day of Class..

Nothing much happened. I decided to drop my Chinese class because RM 12000+ is just not worth it at all. So, I sticking with 4 classes this quarter and I am very happy with it, or maybe not.

Today I attended my Dance Composition class. First class is always intimidating , as I saw many great dancers in my class. Most of them have 5-6 years of dance experience, be it hip-hop, square dance, ballet, modern and etc. I told the class that I have 17 years of "movement experience", in badminton of course. But surprisingly, the dynamic of this class is much better than the one last quarter. Mainly because this class is more active as compared to the previous one. Everyone is funny and not uptight.

2011 marks the year that I will be stepping into the real working world, and as of always, I am not prepared at all. 4 years in America just passed by too fast. But well, I guess I cannot keep on pretending as a student for the rest of my life. Ka Cong went to Shang Hai and worked today. Hopefully, he will achieve great success there and come back to Malaysia with excellent achievements. I am sure he would.

2011-01-04T01:23:00.003-06:00

First Day of Class..

I only had one class this morning - Accelerated Chinese for Bilingual Speakers 2. It is a 8.30am class , Monday to Friday. Well, the first class was not too bad, since I believe I am way ahead of most students in the class. I took this class merely for the A and also, I want to polish up my writing skills. Although I can read almost every single word in Chinese, but I just couldn't write. But after calming myself down, I realized that this "GPA booster" class will cost me USD 3788 = RM 12000+ should i ever decide to break my bond. Worse still, even if i get an A for this class, it only contributes 0.009 or less to my CGPA. I mean, I definitely do not have the intention to break my bond now or anytime soon, but who knows what will happen 5-6 years from now? Who knows some private bank want to hire me and then I will feel really regret for taking this class and paid an extra RM12000!!

I posted this dilemma online and most people (especially those who are already in the working force) strongly discouraged me to do so. Arghh... I still couldn't decide it now. I have consulted my seniors and hopefully they are able to give me some insights.

Later at night, I cooked for my dinner. Home feels rather empty with Vincent not here and Wilson busy with his CUSA show. And yes, Wilson will be leaving after two weeks , a wonderful New Year gift that he gave me for New Year. The parents are worried that I might be lonely , all by myself in this huge apartment and called me a few times to make sure everything is and will be fine. Ha ha~ I do understand their concern, but they probably didn't know that I do enjoy staying by myself. For real. I just need some time to adjust to the lifestyle of doing everything by myself. No more Vincent to wake me up when I take a nap in the afternoon, no one will eat dinner with me anymore, and no one will play Nintendo with me anymore whenever I feel bored. I guess it's a good training to prepare myself when I decided to get a new place for myself in KL later.

Then , went for Dance Practice. New arrangements again. Losing confidence with my dance steps. Well, the show is two weeks from now. After this, I will probably stop doing hip-hop for a while. Need to time to get back on track.

Oh shit, I have class at 8.30am tomorrow. Good night!

2011-01-01T18:48:00.003-06:00

The amazing 2010...

This comes a little bit late because i just came back from San Francisco. So here I am doing a reflection on my amazing 2010. If you follow my facebook, you should know how much I love my 2010. I would say that 2010 is so far the best year for me!

Similarly, let's see if I fulfilled my resolution for 2010 that i set at the end of 2009.

To have a better lifestyle -> better health. I feel that this year is another year where i totally screwed up my health. Slept at 4am almost everyday for the last 2 months had really been a bad experience. [50% success? I did practice this habit up till autumn quarter though]
Lost some weights = Exercise more. [Checked]
Start to do really well in academics, so that i am an inch closer for Phi Betta Kappa! *i have decided that i am not that kind of person who couldn't care less about their CGPA, and yes, CGPA is not everything, but it is indeed something big for me* [Checked]
Show more concern towards my family members. I miss you all, yes i do. [Checked]
TALK LESS. TALK LESS. TALK LESS (the hardest one i think) [Failed]
Be more thrifty. [Failed]
Simplify stuff, but making it more complicated. [50% success]
Start to learn more economics related stuff, such as trading, bonds and etc. [i learnt a lot in my Finance class, but generally i never take the initiative to learn, so consider this as a failure too]

So out of 8 resolutions, I only achieved 4. Erm, shame on me i would say. *sigh*

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So year 2010 started with a bang. I spent my New Year on the plane to Barcelona, Spain for my Study Abroad Program. While spending my 3 months there, I did a lot of traveling around EU.

All started since January when I dragged my enormous luggage to Barcelona. I didn't like this place initially, only to find out that I almost cried when I realized it was the last day for me to be there. Western Civilization class has been amazing ~~i mean the people in my class and not the class itself~~

#1: One of the reasons why i chose Barcelona Program - Gaudi

During the 3 months ,

I spent my Chinese New Year and Valentines Day in London, very much thanks to Meng Yeow and Jeffrey for all the hosting!

#2: Finally visited the infamous "London Bridge is falling down"

#3: Eiffel Tower

Well of course there are like 5-6 mini trips during the span of 3 months but I ain't gonna go into detail one by one.

So after the program, I went to Italy. It was rather emotional because I never believe that I would ever step on the soil of Italia.

#4: Rome

#5: Pisa, pretty much an over-rated place

I also did an internship with Accenture. It was a really grueling to decide on taking up this internship because I was not able to decide to either work or not doing anything for my last summer. But nonetheless, it was definitely not a bad choice. I was very much exposed to the working lifestyle in KL, the work place politics, the backstabbing of office mellow drama, and of course, the importance of having great and fun colleagues!

#6: With Colin, my very uber nice Manager
ps: picture taken during Annual Dinner

Then of course, had my first ever surprise birthday party in Malaysia. Thanks KC for all the trouble to organize this, i know it's difficult.

#7: Finishing a can of beer after i was "surprised" by the gangs, but it wasn't too hard :p

#8 : Supported Spain to win the World Cup.
*I bought the jersey so I die-die also have to support them, and indeed, they won!*
-watched the Final at Penthouse with Hwuang, Adi and Yeow

Then before the school started for new academic year, I went to Cambodia and Vietnam for a short tour with Lionel , Benny and YSPP.

#9: Angkor Wat at 5am

#10: In front of the Vietnam's National Post Office

So in autumn 2010, I hung out a lot with my house mates as the Singaporean graduated. We cooked a lot, partied a bit, and lotsa computer games. lol.

Notable events to note is that, I defended my CSSA Singing Competition title.

#11: Sing sing sing..

Represented UChicago for Greater Chicago Midwestern Singing Competition and got third. Lost to the champion by a bit and felt so bad for one week because the champion won an Ipad and I won a frigging printer. Also, I appeared in the local Chinese daily for the second time. Click here if you are interested to read the article or the link

http://www.chineseofchicago.com/Content.aspx?nid=1437

Also for the autumn quarter too, I have to shamelessly claim something for myself in which I am very proud of. I did very well for my classes for Autumn 2010 *except for the Finance class which i P/F so not counted*. I aced my Econometrics class, the emotion was too much when I received my grade for that class.

Then for the just concluded winter break, I went to my last Disneyland! Yay!

#12: Disneyland Anaheim

#13: Also visited Las Vegas , only to show my ID to the people in casino every 10 minutes

#14: Sang through the Chritsmas Eve night with Sun Yan Zi in Wynn Vegas

#15: Spent a not Lonely Christmas night with Eason
amazing amazing concert

And most importantly, did countdown to the year 2011 with Jay Chou. How cool is that? I don't really have a picture with me now but i will update this post with a picture to make it complete.

So, my 2010 has been rather amazing huhz? Lots of travelling, lot of sight seeing, and of course, lots of life changing experiences. Working for the summer definitely helps me a lot in gauging how's the real society is like. I really really love my 2010 so much!

On the resolution for year 2011, I will need a good night rest to think about it. Although it is already 2nd January. Aiya, 1st January public holiday, so doesn't have to stick with resolution yet (pun intended).

2010-12-29T19:15:00.004-06:00

I am doing fine, albeit tired...

So after 6 days of amazing Vegas trip, I left the wonderful place and flew into San Fransisco. I am actually in Stanford now and I am always a big fan of this school. Keeping my fingers crossed that I will come here to study one day, Masters or PhD maybe?

Anyway, I do not have my laptop with me now, only my netbook. That said, I cannot really do any real deal posting because it is really hard to edit the pictures using my super ultra small netbook.

Just in case if you are interested in knowing what I did in Vegas ~~although what happened in Vegas should stay in Vegas~~ (pun intended), here's a sneak peek.

#1: A trip to one of the Natural Seven Wonders in the World

#2: A date with Stefanie Sun Yan Zi

Anyway, today my facebook news feed is filled with "Malaysia Asean King", “Malaysia Boleh”, "Proud to be a Malaysian".. For the first time, I could see the entire nation being so unite , just because of one small ball. Guess like a ball works than the 1Malaysia campaign. Anyway, congrats to the Harimaus for the success in the ASEAN Suzuki Cup 2010. It is proven that our success during the SEA Games was not a fluke and also, we can definitely harbor the hope to see Malaysia in action in either World Cup or Olympic in near 10-20 years time. :)

Malaysia Boleh!!

ps : cannot type in white, so substituted the white with black.

2010-12-27T03:05:00.002-06:00

Belated Merry Xmas...

When everyone was crazy partying during Xmas Eve or Xmas Night, I was walking around the most decorated street on the Earth - Las Vegas Boulevard (the Strip). Spending Christmas in Vegas is definitely interesting because it totally changes my mind on the definition of "luxury lifestyle".

So far, i have been to two concerts, two upscale buffets, one classical show and tons of gambling.

Grand Canyon tomorrow. Gotta sleep earlier as the shuttle will be picking me up at 6.40am.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

ps: For some reason, I feel I am the most not happening guy on Earth after browsing through friends' blogs that are all talking about how much fun they had from Christmas gathering or Christmas party. :(

2010-12-20T00:33:00.003-06:00

Movie Marathon..

It wasn't really a marathon as we only watched two movies - Black Swan and Narnia. And I would say, Black Swan is actually pretty damn good. Kudos to Natalie Portman for her really good acting. It actually makes me want to read the book now. But on second thought, I wonder how good the book can be since the movie is already so epic.

Narnia is just boring. It was draggy and watching it after Black Swan just make it looked pale in comparison. Maybe I have already reached the age where this kind of movie doesn't appeal to me anymore.

And also, today went to Sam Soo Gab San with Timmy. I always thought this Korean BBQ restaurant is da bomb. But after my summer indulgence at Dao Rae, maybe Sam Soo Gab San is not that good after all. The pork belly bacon is just plain bacon - nothing special. The seafood pancake is still pretty good I would say, but I got it for FREE at Dao Rae. So, yay, Dao Rae tops the list of my favorite Korean Restaurant now!

From time to time, we really need to listen to nice words/ compliments from people to make you feel appreciated:-

A: 看你这样做事，就知道你是一个很好的孩子。

It wasn't anything flattering, but sometimes it is this kind of not-so-flattering praises that make you feel happier than receiving anything else. Doncha' agree?

2010-12-19T15:39:00.001-06:00

你是我最爱的人 and 搞笑 (mash-up)...

We have nothing better to do so we decided to do our first mash-up video, ~~hoping to be the next youtube sensation~~ Enjoy and comment. Thanks.

2010-12-19T02:20:00.002-06:00

Stupid or what?

OK, so I have received all my grades and this quarter, I achieved my highest CGPA so far in UChicago. But that is not after I P/F one of my class.

So it was the day before Finance Finals. The TA sent out emails saying that we will need to email him before 5pm if we wanted to P/F the class. I was struggling to decide if I should do so. I bombed the midterms and the chances were high to do the same feat for finals. But I don't think I should P/F because I studied so hard for that final exams.

After serious consideration ~~plus some kiasu-ism in me started boiling at its peak~~ , I emailed the TA. Normally students who asked for P/F would not even care about the final exams but I still studied my ass off after sending the email.

So the next day, I took the exam and realized that the exam was surprisingly easy, like super easy in fact. I was depressed after the exam because I P/F-ed the class when I thought I could easily ace it with my great finals. So, I emailed the TA and asked if I could maybe take back my request for a P/F. He replied, saying he would ask the head of department. I was like "Oh, ok, thanks for reconsideration" while keeping my fingers crossed that maybe I could still get a quality grade.

The week after, grades were out. I saw a huge freaking P for my finance class. I was disappointed. But nothing much could be done I guess. I was so sure that I might get at least a B+ or A-.

So two days ago, the TA updated our finals score on Chalk site. I checked, and realized I actually almost failed it. B+ and A-? Shame on me. Luckily I was not allowed to get a quality grade. FML. I wonder how did I even feel so confident to ace this class after the Final. OK, concluded, maybe I am stooopid after all.

2010-12-18T01:30:00.003-06:00

Winter Sonata...

It was a random Thursday morning. I really have nothing to do at home since I am not working. Vincent and I regretted for not taking any autumn pictures with the orange-y leaves, and thus, we decided not to skip the our last winter "photo shooting". ps: decided to call this a photo shooting so that our poses are not deemed as disgusting and wtf-ish.

So, here's some of the product of our "Winter Wonderland" photo shoot. LOL. ps: aiya, since i can never be a model in real life, and probably will not have a chance to do a photo shoot, nothing wrong to have some fun with the fluffy snow right? I realized I am super defensive now, wtf.

All pictures were taken at Midway using Vince's DSLR. :) Thanks Vince.

#1: A la Bae Yong Joon

#2: Inspired by Winter Sonata, wtf

#3: The picture that was greatly discussed on facebook

#4: OK, big head picture is a must

Ok, I have to admit, it was quite fun doing all these things during Winter Break. Many times, we in Chicago take sow for granted because we just have too much of them. And when we realize the snow are melting and try to take picture with them, it's often too late and the snow will be rather dirty.

ps: I went to play badminton today. Tim actually showed my pictures around. It was embarrassing, in a not flattering way. fml. whatever.

pps: If my pictures make you feel uncomfortable for a moment, I am greatly sorry about that :p

2010-12-15T22:46:00.003-06:00

Grades are all out..

So, this morning I woke up at 9am for some weird reason. Then, Vince told me most of the grades were out and thus, I nervously checked them. And to my surprise, I did well, much much better than I've expected. Hello Econometrics, seems like I managed to conquer you after all :)

Talking about Econometrics, I am glad that I copied all my notes down "word by word" from the slides into my note book - clean and neat. My father will disagree because he feels that I am wasting too much time on my hand writing. One of my best friend here also commented the same thing before. But I never listen to them because I believe, one day my neat-good-hand-written-notes ~~although have to admit, quite wasting time la~~ will do me good one day. And yes, finally, the notes save me life this quarter.

So now I did well this quarter? Can I go online and buy some gadgets as present for myself? :p

2010-12-13T03:40:00.004-06:00

UIC Open 2010...

Here's the result:-

Men's Single
1st Round : VS Ashok (2-0) Won
2nd Round : VS Kevin Chen (0-2) Lost
3rd Round : VS Donny Ronaldson (0-2) Lost
4th Round (Plate Division): VS Bashant (2-0) Won
5th Round (Plate Semi) : VS Victor Yu (2-1) Won
6th Round (Plate Final) : VS Jinjin Zhang (walkover) Won

Result : Division D Men's Single Champion

Mixed Double with Claire Chen
1st Round : VS Bahthri/ Praveen (0-2) Lost
2nd Round : VS David / Allison (2-0) Won
3rd Round: VS Donny/Ashley (0-2) Lost
4th Round : VS Donald / Githa (2-0) Won
5th Round (Plate Semi) : VS David / Allison (2-0) Won
6th Round (Plate Final) : VS Praveen/ Erica (2-0) Won

Result: Division D Mixed Double Champion

Men's Double with Tim Liu
1st Round : VS Jian You/ Chris (2-0) Won
2nd Round : VS Manny/Tarwin (0-2) Lost
3rd Round (B Semifinal): VS Chris/Hann (2-0) Won
4th Round (B Final) : VS Steve Ross/Danny (1-2) Lost

Result : Division B Men's Double Runners-Up

I think overall I played pretty well, except some unexpected lost in Men's Single that dumped me into the D Division. But it was definitely one of the most tiring tournament i have ever played because for the first time ever, i took part in all 3 events.

Although I was in three finals (winning two), there is actually nothing to shout about because it isn't something great since I won Division D plate. In fact, I reckon it is rather embarrassing given that I have been playing badminton for such a long time. But I think i was really happy with my performance with Men's Double this time because we did win few good games, much better than the previous tournament I would say.

ps: For the first time, I suffered severe cramp on court which managed to create some minor havoc. Yay for my first time but definitely hoping it would be the last. wtf.

pps: Now, i feel like a handicapped now because I cannot bend my body or climb the stairs.

2010-12-11T02:18:00.003-06:00

Nonsense..

So I am officially having my 3 weeks winter break. Surprisingly, I ain't actually that excited at all. Weird I know especially when I was still crazy about my "super asian concert packed winter break". Probably the credit card bills are killing me. I paid the highest amount of credit card debt this month. FML. I ain't a shopaholic, ok? I used my card to reserve all the winter break plannings, from air plane to rooms to concert tickets to tour tickets.

Ok, talking about nonsense. I actually learnt this word from my father because he used to call all those Taiwanese Variety Show especially 我猜，我猜，我猜猜猜 and 超级星期天as nonsense. And he asked us not to watch these kind of shows too much because we might behave like them one day. However, my brother and I kept thinking why will we ever act like them, making funny and idiotic jokes all the time. But sadly, my father's concern is indeed a valid one because never did we realize, we are actually behaving like them. Everytime my brother and I went out for dinner, we basically behave like Jacky Wu and Nono. In fact, I am sure we scared off a lot of our family friends. fol. Sometimes, I could tell they are like "eh, u sure both ur kids are scholar?" lmao.

Setting those things aside, I think it is pretty true that these shows are taken their toll on me. But now i moved on, I no longer addicted to those funny variety show but I watch more talk shows. Some of the talk shows are really good but it also exposes me to a lot of things that I never thought could ever happen. ~~besides showing me more gadgets, more shows, more street wear that i ended up spending money on~~

Tomorrow taking part in another badminton tournament. Hopefully, this time I would be luckier.

ps : My wish was not granted. Not happy. Thanks Cameron for ur gracious grade. :)

2010-12-08T15:50:00.002-06:00

I am a Malaysian...

When everyone is criticizing how bad is Malaysian education system, I always keep quite because I personally think that our system is not that bad. Well, it isn't the best or very well structured, but at least it isn't like utterly hopeless. Whenever I try to defend our education system, I always get bombarded with comments like, "Aiya, you did well under that system, of course you think it is good" I have to agree to that statement to a certain extend. Yes, I did well in under that education system which get to me to where I am now. But that's not the point.

Under our education system, I was forced to take triple Sciences (Biology, Physics, Chemistry) and double Maths (Modern and Additional). It does in a way make me a very "scientific" person, but it doesn't make me a less "artistic" person though. And with those good foundation that I extracted from my high school education, I survived pretty well in my University. Yes, I might complaint once in a while~~or always~~ about how i failed my midterms, how i killed my essay, BUT economics and writing scientific/humanities papers are not what i learnt back in my highschool. It is something very new.

I am glad that I know how to do derivation and integration much better than most people in my class when I took Math 150's and 19o's. I am glad that I know what's osmosis processes are even before the Prof taught us in class when I took Advanced Biology. I am glad that I know all three Laws of Motion that is the core of my Physical Science class.

And I am proud to say that under that education system, I can memorize things much better than most people here too. Many said memorizing is not a good way of learning. I definitely do not agree. Once you are able to memorize those things, I'm sure it will then be easier to understand them.

And from the Finance and Econometrics Finals that I took , I am really glad that I actually gone through that Malaysia's education system.

ps: There are two questions (worth 50% of the entire paper) of the Metrics final that requires pure memorization from the notes. =)

2010-12-07T16:50:00.003-06:00

If only..

If only my paranoid stance doesn't make me from making wrong decisions..

If only I know it will be much easier..

If only I stayed calm and not panicked from the very first day..

Too much if only..

What's the point?

Please reconsider , I beg. Please.

2010-12-05T19:57:00.002-06:00

Calm...

I will be taking my first final exam on Tuesday - Introduction to Finance. I did put in a lot of effort in this class but I guess the effort was just not good enough to do well in this class. Has been trying to think if i should pass/fail this class since the exams are always full with uncertainties. And i am not sure if doing so will hurt my transcript. I am doing my revision now, hoping this, i am able to judge my understanding better.

Next up, I will be taking my Econometrics Final. 90% done with the revision and realized that what Prof Suzanne thought in class actually make sense. I hope to do well in this class as I really have to. And also i need some luck to ace this so called hardest economics topic.

Surprisingly, I am not that nervous this time around. Maybe i know i still have like 1.5 days to do my revision. But I guess being senior does make a change here. But is me being too calm at this point of time a bad thing? )

2010-12-03T03:14:00.002-06:00

Senioritis kicking in...

It's study break now. Well, we do not really get a study break since it is only two days to cramp in everything we learnt for the past 10 weeks. Senioritis (refer here if u do not know what is senioritis) definitely kicked in hard enough. Instead of studying our asses off, we decided to go for a hotpot dinner. fol.

#1: With Vince

#2: Vince and Wilson

Promise gonna study hard tomorrow ~~besides got CUSA Show rehearsal tomorrow~~
ps : i aint liking my new hair :( no like, too short...

2010-12-02T01:48:00.003-06:00

Done with two, two more to go..

Claps claps.. I am done with two finals!

And co-incidentally, I used to same trick while presenting my two final projects - SING.

When everyone is required to move according to their self prepared text, most people decided to just read it, plainly. Well, some read it with emotions. One girl brilliantly read a poem instead of monotonous plain reading. I did a step further. I sang. I think, with that singing, I just pushed myself from a B+ to an A. *keeping my fingers crossed*

While for the other class, I was assigned to sing from the very beginning. From the second day of the class, singing was like attached to me. fml. But my instructor actually thinks that my singing doesn't suit the emotion that she wants to portray in her play - silent desperation. How? Tell me how to let the audience feel the emotion of "silent desperation" just by using my voice? It took me a long time to figure it out. But in the end, I think iIstill did a pretty ok job for it, just worried it is not good enough for an A. *kiasu till the max* I mean, some classes are just meant to give out As, so if I were to take this class and ended up getting a B, it is quite embarrassing ok?

Ok, to not make my mum worried - Hi Mum, my next two finals are all Economics related. So no worries ok? :) Econometrics and Finance. Tuesday and Wednesday.

ps : more singing job for me = more money...

pps : I learn this new phrase which I definitely agree.

"I bukan gila kuasa, I hanya takut orang gila dapat kuasa"
(I am not power crazy (crazy for power), I just do not want crazy people to get the power"

Happy Study Break, UoC peeps!!

ppps: I think I know where I am going for summer next year. I mean vacation plans. Super excited.

2010-11-30T23:06:00.002-06:00

Cut..

Again, I failed to keep my hair as long as I want because my hair is just too messy..

So, i cut it short again.

#1 : Sorry if you feel disgusted of my self portrait
~~no choice, cos the last time i really cut my hair was in June~~

#2: Side view, very short side

Comments anyone?

2010-11-29T16:02:00.001-06:00

删除。。。

当你选择按删除，你就已经，

轻轻的在我心里开了一枪。

狠狠的留下一个洞，

感觉好痛。。

2010-11-29T02:30:00.002-06:00

Emails..

I was cleaning my gmailbox and accidentally read this line in one of my long hidden email - "please study hard and make sure you finish your education within the time allowed".

Yes, that line actually made me panicked for a lil, for some reason.

As i continued my "cleaning process", I received another email from a long-time-no-see friend all the way from Asia. I read his email, and felt so much more motivated now. As in, having him to share his side of story with me made me realize how fortunate I am.

Never expect emails can be that powerful, as it crushed me for one moment, and made me appreciate my life better the next second.

2010-11-28T12:55:00.002-06:00

Morning Panic

Woke up in the morning, only to realize that it is already Sunday. Meaning, the Thanksgiving break is officially over and I have to get back to my work now. Then, i started to accept the fact that next week is the last week of my Fall quarter, and the following week is my finals week.

This quarter's final week will not be that bad for me, as I only have to sit for two finals as i had taken two already. But the thing is, for Finance, i literally has no confidence at all with the finals, and contemplating if i should just audit off this class. Well, it's kinda stupid for me to do that but I am really worried the finals gonna be the same as the jackass midterm.

As for Metrics, well not much to complain since 95% of the class do not know what is going on. Multiple variable regression is really pushing my limit. But with a few math genius in my study group, I can't help but feel really inferior being with them. Why not? Since I was *read was* also once a "math expert" back in high school.

I was reading NJ's blog earlier and something struck my mind. I feel that i have not achieved much in UChicago for the last 3.5 years here. And with only 0.5 year to go, i doubt i am gonna achieve any. But i think out of so many seniors i have asked, most of them felt the same too. But to be really honest, I haven't really done any significant thing in UChicago.

Now, one more problem set in Finance and one more Stock Trading Exercise will conclude my Fall Quarter because i sit for my two finals, one in Finance and another in Metrics. Time to get back to my revision~~if not slacking~~

2010-11-27T19:31:00.003-06:00

My Thanksgiving..

As I've said earlier, Thanksgiving means a lot to the Americans. But for me, it just means a long break and the greatest sale of the year - The Black Friday Sale. I really hope Malaysia will have this kind of Megasale sometime in the future because those deals are real deals. Malaysia's very own "Megasale" is nothing but a fluke.

Anyway, my Thanksgiving started on Wednesday itself. On Wednesday night , Vincent Ang organized a Thanksgiving potluck dinner. It was supposed to be a "Ouran High School" themed party but of course, it didn't turn out to be that way. me is getting the role honey senpai *dont puke* It turned to be a drinking game party followed by watching a comedy which is really really bad!!

On Thursday, Wan Xin came to Chicago and we met up at Saint Alps. I haven't seen this girl for four years. The "sua ku" girl that i knew in Singapore is not longer the same anymore , i mean physically. But then, sorry to say she is still pretty sua ku. >.<>

#1 : With Wan Xin at Saint Alps

After dinner, I joined them to go Aurora. I didn't want to go initially because Aurora = Outlet Malls = Shopping = Buy things = Waste money. But i gave in after all because The Balck Friday Sales temptation is just to great. So we went to the outlet mall at 11pm and after 2 hours of traffic jam, we arrived at 1am. I am so glad that i actually didn't spend a lot in Aurora ~~because i already bought so much online~~ Since the lines for most of the big brands were so long, I went into Coach Men Store and gotten myself a lanyard. :) That is probably my best buy of the night/morning.

I went back home at 6am and found out that Vincent was already awake. So, we continued to do online shopping till 8am. It's was crazy, yes, really crazy. The scariest part of online shopping is that, you will never know how much you buy until you click the "Checkout" button. So, there goes my money~

At night, Vincent and I decided to make a Thanksgiving dinner. So i baked a Banana Cake and made Ginger Chicken and Italian Fruit Salad. Vince, one the other hand, made Herbs Mashed Potato. And yes, all these dishes didn't go well with each other, like at all. FOL. But it was still a nice and simple dinner.

#2 : Banana Bread

#3: Our "Super Fusion" Dinner

At 8.20pm, Nao called me and invited me to go to Violet Hour, a very nice lounge at North Damen. So I went with them and had a really good time there. :) The lounge is really pretty, but we actually waited for about 45 minutes to get our seats. The drinks there are pretty good, good environment, but just a little bit too dark for me.

#4: Entrance of Violet Hour

#5: My fav of the night - Dark & Stormy

#6 : With the group of people who went last night

#7: From left, Filipp, Yvonne, Jisook, Athena

It was a great thanksgiving but also a very tiring one. Now i am down with cold and not feeling really well. :( Time to get some rest, i guess.

2010-11-24T02:53:00.002-06:00

Finally Done with My Draft...

So i am done writing my paper for my class. I went to see the performance tonight because i couldn't get the ticket on Sunday. Traces is pretty good. I had very low expectation about this Broadway show but it certainly exceeds my expectation. I am really deprived of sleep recently because I have been too engrossed in reading my new favorite book "The Minds of Billy Milligan". For the first time ever, I am addicted into reading a book. I actually woke up middle of the night just to continue reading this book.

Wiki it. It is a really interesting book talking about multiple personalities, 26 in fact for Billy Milligan case.

Also, Thanksgiving is around the corner. ~~but being international student, who cares about Thanksgiving?~~ It means holiday for us, and Black Friday Sale - the biggest sales of the year! Anyone wants me to help buying things? Let me know ASAP. *cough cough*

p/s : mummy, want another Coach bag? :p

2010-11-20T23:42:00.002-06:00

Performance Installation Final Piece...

So one of the classes that I took this quarter is Performance Installation. It is basically a class that triggers the students ability to come out with interesting and unique piece of performance piece. Last year, we did a play adapted from Electra from the Greek mythology. This quarter, we decided to do something out of the box and came out with the idea of "Haunted House". Well, it wasn't exactly a haunted house, but we combine few mini pieces into one big picture, hoping to project the feeling of "creepiness" and fear to the audience.

I was in charge ~~lead actor~~ for one of the main three pieces of the entire show. For my show, it was about a singer went crazy and killed the famous pianist who tries to get near to his beloved girl, Lucy. Knowing the the singer killed the pianist, Lucy went amok and killed the singer in return. Yes, the story line itself was really bizzare, but the show itself isnt because the setting was enhanced with lighting, butoh video , smell, screams , wailing and etc.

So we performed our final piece on Thursday and it was a huge success except my fellow Malaysian friends came and laughed when I spoke Malay in that show. Well, the main intention was to create a very tense feeling using language that no one understands. So, i chose Malay because there are only 10 people in the entire school that understand Malay. Who knows, out of the 10, 6 actually came!!! :( plan backfired.

Anyway, hopefully i can get a good grade from this class to boost up my ever dropping GPA!

#1 : The atmosphere of the room, dark gloomy hot and lit up with candles

#2: I was approaching the pianist and trying to kill him

#3: Apparently, holding a pole and looking up singing a creepy song is kinda scary too

#4: I sang "Hope There's Someone" and had to wail after singing to intensify the situation

#5: One of the mini pieces of the performance

all pictures taken by and stolen from Vince's camera. btw, in this piece, Vince is like the guardian of Lucy and he actually drown me at the end of my piece

2010-11-17T22:59:00.003-06:00

烦。。

Well, 也没真的很烦啦。因为，也不知道该怎么形容我现在的心情，但明确的知道是偏向烦的心情咯。

今天练舞练的好辛苦，可能较和脖子都扭伤了。所以很难跟上节拍。后来被老师看出来了，还说我 "off tempo"。听了，还蛮伤的啦。不过没办法，反正就是表现得不过好。写个星期也要开始排练 CUSA Show的 dance, 想了就害怕。

Performance 课问题又是不断的来。。一波未平一波又起。一下是找不到桌子，矛头指向我。。一下是 projector 不能用，又是我的错。神经病，关我屁事。一下说我唱的不够认真，但我唱的很认真的时候，又说我唱的太长，需要剪掉。房间出了事，我第一个中箭。真的很烦！

Finance 更是惹毛了我。很努力很努力的练了，但是还是没考得很好。想P/F 他算了，但是又觉得很可惜。。

Metrics 已经开始完全不明白老师再说什么呢。每次去上课，就是忙着炒笔记。平了老命的在炒，完全忽略了老师说的话。真的是，但是还好我还在这堂课survive的很好。所以应该不用太担心啦。。

Winter Break 还需要买两张机票。。但是，还无法确定几时能买。。。

烦。靠。烦。

update: I am feeling much better now. Maybe I have been sleeping too much today that my brain just stop working for a moment. I wrote down all my problems on a piece of paper and sort them out one by one. Glad that everything is falling into places now, hopefully.
Received two invitations to perform. One paid one unpaid. Need to decide if i want to do that.

2010-11-15T12:37:00.004-06:00

It was so close..

ps : Just in case any of you are interested, this competition was featured in the newspaper.
http://www.chineseofchicago.com/Content.aspx?nid=1437

So I represented UChicago for the Greater Chicago Singing Competition Grand Finale. It was basically the Grand Final for all the winners from their respective Universities. It was held in University of Illinois - Chicago (UIC).

#1: With UChicago Graduate Students

Upon arrival, I proceeded to do my sound check. Again, the mic here wasn't the best, but nothing much to complain since everyone used the same mic anyway. But after everyone did their sound check, I freaked out because i know my chances of winning was close to 0. *everyone sang so well!!* I tried to calm myself down by texting my friends, telling them how nervous i was.

So i was the 15th contestant to sing. I belted out my song 大海. I tried my best to not allow the poor micto influence my performance. Half way through, I was glad to gain some "fans" from University of Roosevelt who started to cheer for me. BTW, I went there without a friend. I went there by myself *well, the president of CSSA UChicago sent me there, and i don't know him before this*. So sad right?

#2: Singing my heart out

And after my singing, I knew i blew it. I was kinda pitchy because i couldn't hold the mic close enough. Being depressed, I walked out of the venue trying to cool myself down. Surprisingly, a group of people came out with me and started talking to me. It was definitely a consolation because they all love my singing very much. After getting my phone numbers and taking pictures with me, I definitely felt much better.

And as expected, I didn't win. I got third. But it wasn't that bad after all as when I was announced as third placing, I swear I heard people sigh in dissatisfaction. I won myself some vouchers and a Canon printer which i don't need at all.

The winner from UIC who sang won herself an Ipad. Ipad! Oh my god! It actually hurts to see the Ipad belongs to someone else. Argh, to make things worse, the judges came to me after the competition and said:-

"Oh, i thought u will have won this competition. But then, you sang better last week. You have great potential but it wasn't good tonight"

Rubbing salt on my wound. :(

Anyway, at the end of the singing, about 6-7 people came up to me to congratulate ~~console~~ me. They took pictures with me, gave me flowers, and i even autographed on someone's book. It is definitely a great consolation given that I was so close in winning that competition.

#3: Flowers given to me

#4: Ok la, I seldom get flowers from people ~~girls~~ . So one more picture

#5: The printer that I won. Anyone want to buy?

By the way, I am selling off this printer. I don't need it at all. I am willing to let it go at $80.00 or best offer. Let me know. Here's the amazon link:
http://www.amazon.com/Canon-Wireless-Inkjet-Printer-3747B002/dp/B002GP7Z6Y

Let me know if anyone of you or any of your friends is interested!

Thankiu.

2010-11-14T14:10:00.002-06:00

Messed up morning continues...

So i woke up this morning, getting ready for my dance practice. But then, i missed the bus by one minute and I was to cheapo to get a cab. So, i walked in the cold *i ran for the bus, so i was very "under-dressed"* across the park, to get #55 . While waiting, I received a call saying that the choreographer needed to leave at 12 noon, it was 11.15am then. The bus came and i arrived at the dance studio at 11.22am. I ran into the dance studio and found no one there.

I got his number and called him. He was not very happy and said he left since no one was there. Ok, no one means I wasn't the only one who were late. FML.

So, i walked to the nearest bus stop and got on to #172 and went back home.

Tonight i will be having the Singing Competition. Hope my messed up streak ends now! Like right now and let me strike my Ipad tonight. Please.

2010-11-13T13:40:00.002-06:00

Messed Up morning...

*sigh* Woke up this morning and realized everything just didn't go well as planned. So, i am supposed to go for KSO Dance Tryouts at 1.15pm. But i woke up at freaking 1pm and missed the bus. And if i were to take the next bus which is at 1.30pm, i will arrive at the dance studio at freaking 1.42pm. So I decided to skip this and sent an email to the choreographer, pleading for another chance.

Then, I called the CSSA guy asking what time is the singing competition today. He paused for 30 seconds and told me the competition is tomorrow. I felt damn stupid for a while. Then, i asked what time will he be fetching me tomorrow, he said 3.30ish pm. Because of the earlier embarrassment, I didn't dare to ask him if i can change my song choice.

So I registered that I will be singing 大海for the competition. But after a few practice, i realize my voice has been cracking so it is not a wise decision to sing 大海. Thus, i want to change it to 你是我最深爱的人. Boring i know. But i have been using this song to win competitions. So why not using it one more time? But the question is, can i make last minute changes?

And since the competition not gonna be today, I will have to miss the rehearsal for my performance class tomorrow. And i received an email from my instructor yesterday *a personalized one*, which almost scares the shit out of me! Being super paranoid with my grades, I have to really buck up and show her what I've got for the last few weeks of class. If not, sayanora kthxbai thxcomeagain to my much needed A.

Argh.. Messed up nyer~~~~

2010-11-12T10:53:00.002-06:00

...

Sometimes, I seriously believe that a short message can make one feel happy for the entire day. This is the fourth time I am receiving such notice/emails/phone calls and etc. Although deep inside myself I know this is very unreal, but it still doesn't stop me from dreaming big.

Dream Big!

2010-11-12T00:43:00.003-06:00

I can have winter plan..

So, my winter plan is pretty much set - it comes with a high cost. I will call my this winter break as a "super-Asian-pop-can-go-crazy-i-am-so-broke Dream Vacation".

I am going to West Coast again!! Yay!! I am going to stay in Chicago for the first week and fly to Anaheim, California to visit Disneyland California. This will be my third time pre-Christmas in Disney. I will be going there for 2 days.

After Disneyland, I will head towards Las Vegas, the Sin City. There , I am going to watch Sun Yan Zi's Concert and Eason's concert. Then, I might also watch Cirque de Soleil but this very much depends on my availability. Vincent and I are also going for a one day Grand Canyon tour. *so who says you need a car to go Vegas?* In fact, it is much cheaper to take a tour than to drive there since the tour is rather cheap.

Up next will be San Fransisco. I am going to visit Lionel in Stanford. I super like San Fransisco so, I am super excited. But what makes me more excited is that I am going to do New Year countdown with my friends at Jay Chou's concert.

But all this gonna cost a bomb. Because all these shows aren't cheap at all. And yes, you can laugh all you want because I am watching all these Asian pop stars in America. I don't care! Because if I don't do all these, I will be stranded in Chicago by myself and never go to Las Vegas anymore. So sad can die one you know?

Anyone wants to join me? We have basically booked everything, but our room have two queen sized bed. So, join us. The more the merrier! :)

#1: Visualizing my winter break!LMAO

I am super excited now. To be honest.

ps: Apparently, Duffy, the bear which is more famous than Mickey Mouse in Disneyland Japan has arrived in the States. LOL. Ok, i am not that excited about it anyway （not a big fan of bears). But it came at a right time -to compensate my negligence for not paying more attention at this famous bear when i was in Disney Tokyo.

pps: on a side note, see what i have received in my gmail box.
"9:30 p.m., Thursday, November 11 – On the Midway Plaisance near Harper Library – A University student crossing the Midway Plaisance saw three males as he neared the Linne statue. A fourth person jumped from the bushes and struck him with an unknown object knocking the victim unconscious. When the victim regained consciousness, he sought help and was transported to the Mitchell Emergency room for treatment." Crap. Be careful, UChicago Peeps.

2010-11-11T00:21:00.004-06:00

CSSA Singing Competition 2010

Before i go into this event, i think i am pretty much done with this new blog layout. Like it? Comments? I personally think it is kinda cool because now it looks much neater. But i failed my promise because i didn't change the images. I will do so over the weekend.

So I took part in the CSSA Singing Competition. This year they decided to have it in Hutch instead of Ida Noyes which is a really bad choice. Ida has better sound system than Hutch. the winner this year gets to represent UChicago for the Midwest/Chicago *not sure* region CSSA Singing Competition 2010.

HanHan emailed me at a very last minute but I guess there is nothing to lose for me to take part again. But to be fair, it is definitely more pressure at stake since I was taking part as the defending champion. Since that was the case, I chose two very difficult song to sing for the competition :- 大海 and 我只是想要 both by 陈伟联.

Well, i am glad that i won it again this time.

#1: Me singing我只是想要

#2: More pictures of me singing, thanks to Vince.

#3: One of my two fans ~~housemates~~ who stayed till the end of my competition

This Saturday i will be representing UChicago for that competition in UIC. Hopefully i will get a good result because i chose to sing 大海 for that. Hmm.. Now i am wondering if that is a bad choice. *sigh* But i will try my best!

And something that i ordered came today， an early Christmas gift for myself?

#4: Puma watch

Good night!

2010-11-10T14:27:00.002-06:00

Obviously..

I am trying to change the interface of my blog. I think it look's better now. Clean and neat.

Will change the images soon.

I stayed in the library till 12.20am yesterday.

Trying to sort things out.

But I think I didn't make it happen after all.

Off to classes. A very fun class.

Hopefully, I'm able to release the final version of this new interface soon. Yippie!

My facebook status stat says that i have been using fml for too many times. So i guess it's time for me to stop using fml for a while. fml. *did i just use it three times, sorry pun intended*

2010-11-09T23:19:00.002-06:00

Fred.... Perry....

I always know about Fred Perry and i got a shock when i visited the retail store in KLCC this summer. The polo tee is priced at RM 400+ per piece. Yes, per piece.

So today, Gilt has them. The exact one that i saw in the shop.

So I, guiltily clicked a few mouse.

And sin happened.

I am so screwed.

I clicked not once, but twice. Because before i clicked the "checkout" button,

I "accidentally" read the "recommended for you" column.

So... I... did.. it.. again..

2010-11-07T10:59:00.005-06:00

Life blogging - CSSA Singing Competition 2010

I am so freaking bored now waiting for my turn to sing. Since i have my netbook with me, why not try doing my first ever life blogging :)

1.15pm - I picked my sequence, i got number 7! Lucky seven i guess.

1.23pm - Their DVD player not working well. Lucky that i brought the files along. So did sound check and it was fine.

1.37pm - The event started. The first contestant sang 断点. I like that song.

2.10pm - I sang my song choice 大海. The microphone is really really bad. I couldn't hear my voice at all. But i think i did ok overall. At least, i didn't forget the lyrics.

2.16pm - Contestant #8 sang surprisingly well. He sang 太想爱你。 After he sang, the host announced my score, i achieved 9.17. Currently rank no.1 . :)

3.16pm - I sang mine 我只是想要.. It's really hard to sing because the chorus is quite "dramatic". I think i did well. The lady judge said i have good expressions and feelings, but my voice can still be improved.

3.40pm - My scores are out. First round, 9.17, Second round 9.13, Audience vote - 9.03. Average total score - 9.11. Currently rank #1 :)

update: And yes, i got first place :) I won myself a set of speakers and a ticket for the Midwest Region CSSA Singing Competition. A win there seems to guarantee an Ipad. I want it badly.

2010-11-07T01:11:00.002-05:00

Sing...

天呀。。。

明天又是一年一度的CSSA歌唱大赛。。

还记得去年我赢了冠军 *Refer here*，一转眼有一年了。。真得好快哦。。

也代表着我的blog也一岁多了吧。。

说不紧张当然是骗人的。。

毕竟我也有大概一年没在芝大唱歌了呀。。

还有，平时参加各场比赛，我都会唱我很有把握的哥，so call “口袋歌”。。

但是明天，我竟然选唱了蛮有高难度的歌。。

也应该说，我觉得，我的口袋歌也用了无数次了吧。。

该是时候唱点新歌。。

现在咳得半死的我，真得好怕明天不会表现得很好。。

毕竟我还蛮care成绩的，因为只是一个中文歌唱大赛吧。。

赢了还能代表芝大迎战别校个高手。。。

所以，我一定要加油！！！

Anyway,今天还蛮开心的。。因为我的寒假也有了一个明确的方向。。

It's gonna be a really cool winter plan... So cool that I am super excited now..

有意知道我寒假去哪里的话，明天再回来吧。。

and我也会跟大家分享我到底赢或输了比赛。。

Happy Birthday ArJay Rubbishbin.. :)

2010-11-05T02:34:00.004-05:00

Best Hotpot Ever...

So i went to 叔叔's house for dinner tonight. Tim is my regular badminton partner. We did ok for our first open tournament and we are already planning to go for a few more different competitions. And since his wife already graduated from Michigan Law School, he decided to organize a hotpot night. And trust me, the hotpot that he made was probably the best i have eaten so far. For BP-ians reader, it might even be better than the one of Minyak Beku.

So, anyway, I really couldn't remember when did i start calling him 叔叔. But well, he indeed treats very well, I guess like how an uncle treats his nephew? He actually brought me to Westmont for Taiwanese Breakfast for the first time ever!!

#1: The ingredients were just amazing!

#2: We had two kinds of soup - Xiao Fei Yang and Sze Chuan Spicy Soup

After the dinner, we had the most intense fight .. on Wii. Out of the sudden, the competitive side of mine just appeared as i was playing so hard to win all the games. Of course, i sucks in this game big time. Another reason maybe why i should not get a Wii. XD

#3: With Tim playing Wii Resort (before we got really intense)

#4: Die die must win

#5: Up against Chen Si for Swordplay *we had the same action and expressions*

#6: Again, we had the same facial expressions..

#7: With Tim and his wife, Xiao Lin :)

To Tim *if u happen to read this by any chance*, thanks so much for everything! :)

2010-11-03T03:24:00.003-05:00

A Day With My Son..

After 3.5 years of searching for this movie, i finally found it. I downloaded this movie three times, frustrated over it for three times too because i couldn't get the subtitle right.

I cried so badly when i first watched it on the plane 3.5 years ago. This time around, it wasn't that bad. Only teary eyes.

Now i miss my family so much. Tad of home sick.

I remembered when i watched it for the first time, i was trying so hard to control my tears because Eileen and NJ were sitting ~~sleeping~~ beside me. I was trying so hard to stop my sobbing. What a experience.

A really good movie to watch. Strongly recommend it to anyone who loves this kind of family-themed movie. can also come and find me if you all want to have the video, since i have three different versions of it. one with super high quality but raw, one with ok quality with mandarin sub, and one with low quality with english sub.

ps: I am done with my midterms. I have gotten back my Econometrics midterm and surprisingly, i didn't fail it. With slightly above the median (median higher than mean for this class), i guess i am in a good shape to nail this class down. :)

2010-11-02T01:35:00.003-05:00

Midterm..

Few hours into my Finance midterm. I already read up everything that i could ~~but not the textbook though because i think it is pretty useless~~. I think i bombed my metrics midterm, so hopefully tomorrow everything will turn out to be fine.

Was talking to Ching Hwuang just now over Gtalk. Again i realized that expectations are so different in university now. Back in high school, I worried my exams because I was super kaisu wtf la, worried if i couldn't get the highest mark or at least, worried couldn't get A1. Never will i realize that now in UChicago, i am freaking worried because i might fail the test. Yes, fail. Failing a class which is required for major means you will have to take one more class , if not you will not be graduating.

So tell me? Ironically, i am doing so well in my other classes. :p ~~ok-la, not only fail, i am also pretty worried to get C .. C leh C=2.30~~ And this has nothing to do about being kiasu or not ok? Getting a C is really bad. Kiasu means i only want to get A. wtf, super defensive.

What to do, i vowed not to be that competitive anymore. fml.Ok, going to bed now. Please boh bi me to excel in this test.

ps: i might get my Metric's midterm back tomorrow. Woah, super nervous. Wait fail how?*super Malaysian English, ftw*

pps: if u think u dont understand what i am typing, it is totally normal because i have this tendency to blabber when i am super nervous. or drunk. and for sure, i am super nervous + scared + worried now...

update (11.35am): I am back from doing the finance midterm. It was probably my worse midterm so far. The questions are freaking long and it is almost impossible to finish them. I am disappointed because i think i studied really hard for this and the exam was just unfair. My only consolation is, i think almost everyone bombed it. The million dollar question is, who bombed is worse than the other? fml.

2010-10-31T00:38:00.003-05:00

Victorious...

So i won the Intramural Men Singles Badminton 2010, for the third time in four years. I am happy. Really happy.

It's been some time since i last won a competition. I guess, it is good to win something once in a while as confidence booster.

Had a wonderful dinner with Ploy,Cher and Helen. It was pretty much a triple date. LOL. We had lots of fun talking about K-Pop to Thai's name to monk. It is really nice to meet up with these old friends. :)

#1: Appetizer : Red Pepper Hummus

#2: Entree : Miso Glazed Snapper with Ginger Mignonette

#3: With the three girls..

ps: I didn't go and see Obama after all. :( No Obama but have great friends around, i guess that is more important?

2010-10-30T02:36:00.002-05:00

I think i am too competitive...

Since young, I have been a super competitive guy who wants to win in everything. I guess the pressure given by my family and natural competitiveness play a bit part in making me having this kind of personality. Once of my bosses told me before that, there is nothing wrong to be competitive , but i need to know the limit , or else it will back fire and make me a really tired human being.

I guess i am now in that phase. I am tired. Mentally.

Time to let loose. I guess. But again, i never think "competitiveness" is a bad thing.

Tomorrow i am taking part in my last Intramural Competition. I want to win so badly as this is my last chance to collect the Intramural Champion Tee. But again, i shall not let my "competitive soul" to take over me.

Setting that aside, i feel super accomplished with my latest success in the kitchen- 叉烧Char Siu (BBQ Pork) and 鸡饭 Chicken Rice.

#1: Nice sexy succulent Char Siu

#2: + Rice = Char Siu Chicken rice. wtf.

ps: Yay, someone saw my blog and decided to bring me Westmond for a Taiwanese Breakfast!! Super happy and excited...

pps: Obama is coming back to Hyde Park tomorrow. He is giving a talk somewhere near Midway at 4.30pm. But my competition starts at 3.30pm. fml. ahhh.

2010-10-29T00:39:00.003-05:00

I've used everything i have...

So today i sat for my Econometrics midterm. It was crazy. Don't even dare to imagine how bad it is. Hoping everyone in the class bombed the midterm too.

To divert my sadness after the dreadful midterm, I went to Davey to play badminton. For the first time ever, I played at a public club. And I was up against this guy whom i lost to in the previous tournament. I played my heart out ,knowing that i had to win to regain my pride *wtf, super competitive*.

I won, but not after much suffering.

The price i paid to win...

Someone, please bring me out of Hyde Park... please..

2010-10-28T00:11:00.002-05:00

Midterm...

So is week 5 now.. the dreadful midterm week is here. this quarter, i have 2 midterms which are nicely scheduled not in the same week.

Tomorrow, i will be taking econometrics, something that most econ majors labeled as "the hardest course" in the Econ Major requirement. And i actually do have a friend who failed to graduate last quarter because he well, failed his finals. So he is now here doing fifth year, just because he need to pass this class.

Surprisingly, i ain't that nervous anymore , probably because the "fourth year anything also never mind" syndrome starts kicking in.. Is not that I do not care about my grades anymore, but what's the point to care so much right? I am really hoping that i can just sail through this class. There are too many geniuses in this class. So, in the war of giants, i just hope that i don't get pawned.

Ok, back to my books. Actually, with 6 months to go to my graduation, i realized i really love studying. I am working so hard on my psets , much harder than anytime in the last three years. Oh my...

2010-10-26T01:28:00.003-05:00

Messed Up Winter Plans..

So that Jay Chou decided to have his concert in San Jose, so i cant go anymore since my friends can't go anymore.

I want to go Las Vegas but it seems like my inability to drive in the States really fark-ed up my life.

I want to go UK but i receive no response yet from that side.

I...

I don't want to stay..

In Chicago for winter...

And with Midterms coming up in two days,I will be caught up with more work, more part-time jobs, more studies, papers... and i might just forget to plan for my winter break... :( T___T

So messed-up can?

*sigh big time* *big time sigh*

2010-10-22T03:08:00.004-05:00

Some history about my passion in music...

I seriously involved myself in singing when i was 17. However, the small passion of mine started when i was only 10. My father bought me my first original cassette (ya, that time CD is damn expensive) when I was 10. He did that also partly because my brother pestered my dad to buy him Andy Lau's original cassette. Back in those days, pirated music industry is not blooming yet, so yea, everyone bought original album. I still remember very vividly that my first cassette was "Aaron Kwok Best Hit". It was the first time i was introduced to Chinese Music because all these while, i was only exposed to Western 80's Hit Songs.

Then, i went crazy about Sun Yan Zi's 天黑黑 and started to save my pocket money to buy her original cassette album. Then the savior of most of us came when the pirated CDs vendor came to save our world. Then, i started to "collect" all pirated CDs. I went back this summer and calculated how many pirated CDs had i bought so far, and to my astonishment, i have 104 CDs. That doesn't even include the Karaoke VCDs that i bought. 104x RM 7 per piece = RM 704!!! I actually spend so much on pirated CDs. ~~i remember i was awarded with some VVIP membership at this pirated CD shop in Summit~~

When i went to INTEC, i was then exposed to music downloading for the Net and it totally changed my world again. Since then, i never even bother to buy pirated CDs. What i did was searching for "preview" version of the album and listen to everyone of them. *note: all YanZi's album that i bought are original, not ciplak(fake) one ok?*

However, i have this weird interest in watching concerts and musicals. And you know, even if these concerts are uploaded online, it will take years to finish downloading them since they are like 800mb - 1.5GB per concert. So, i ended up buying a lot of concerts, ranging from Jay Chou to IL Divo to Sun Yan Zi to Kitaro.

So, recently, i bought 2 concerts DVD and 1 music CD online and they arrived tow days ago.

#1: The DVDs and CDs

I bought Sun Yan Zi's Kite 风筝Album again. I had a very weird funny story with this album of hers. When it was first released, i bought the cassette. When i am a bit older, i decided that i need to keep the CD version since cassette spoils easily. So i ordered from the YanZi's Fan Club and got it delivered to me. But when i received it, the CD was badly damaged. So, they actually compensated me with another copy with YanZi's signature on it. However, i freaking-ly lost the CD and i couldn't find it anymore. So, this basically is my fifth original copy of this album. fml.

I also bought Penny's 野蔷薇 Concert DVD. Needless to say, she is one of my favorite singers of all time. She is super eccentric when she performs , which is what i really like about her. Unlike other female singers who try to act demure, she releases her true self on stage which is very admirable. Definitely a worth watching concert, but the audio is a little bit distorted. :(

Lastly, i bought Jam Hsiao's Mr Rock Concert DVD. I do not really like his singing. But he did really well during this concert. I saw the preview and it was mad awesome. But i dont encourage anyone to watch this concert at one go because his voice can be quite irritating after listening it for two hours non stop. *no offense to his fans out there* But he definitely did extremely well when doing covers from other singers.

2010-10-20T03:54:00.003-05:00

My friend...

When the whole world was going crazy over Ipod touch, Ipod nano with video recording function, Iphone, Ipad, Zune and what's not, I never abandoned my this little good friend of mine..

This friend of mine traveled around the world with me. I cannot imagine my life without her. She was the first "luxury item" i bought using my own money when i first came to the States. In fact, she was the most expensive thing that i ever bought then. I think i paid USD 276 for her, an amount that i still believe really worth it.

Recently, i saw many of her same kind was abandoned. Their owners decided to sell them or even give them away because they look ugly and not as portable, or they found Iphone much convenient. Nonetheless, I really appreciate the time i spent with her. I grabbed her tightly before i went up to stage to perform. She is always with me before I go up on stage for a singing competition. She is always there when i couldn't sleep at night. She never leaves me when I do not want to listen to anything outside my world.

I cannot promise i will want her to be with me forever. But as it for now, i know without her, my life will be miserable. She is my Ipod Classic 80GB.

#1: My Ipod with her twin sister.

To value how much i treasure her, i even bought her a branded leather "Incase" casing which cost me about USD 35.

To my Ipod Classic, i will never throw you away even if i get myself an Iphone. Because i know you can store more songs that Iphone. :p so there you go, you still have your advantage.

2010-10-18T02:19:00.002-05:00

It was a great night...

Yi-Ping invited us to his house for Mara's birthday bash. We went there and ended up being super drunk. Haven't been this drunk for such a long time - eventually led me to post those two embarrassing status updates which did create a fuss the next morning.

Nevertheless, it was a great night. We played drinking games and ran around the street like crazy , wtf. Yes, senior year, that was what we did. :p

#1: With Wilson (30% drunk)

#2: Almost drunk, last "normal" picture that i had

What a great night. But i had a really bad day recovering the next morning.

2010-10-17T02:02:00.003-05:00

思考 I

好久没用中文了，突然间，好想好想用中文来说说话，写写字。。

可能还受到三天前在上表演课的阴影。感觉老师说的话，好疼好疼，也失去了满多信心。

平时自我感觉非常良好的小弟我，原来也会碰到这样的时刻。

这几天，先开口都要三思。

其实，很多事情好像跟我们的理想相差很远，

也绝对不能希望这世界跟着我们的理想走。

明明知道这一切，但为什么我还未能释怀呢？

我承认我是个理想主义者，不不，我离完美主义还差蛮远的。

也许这就是我的弱点吧，但我无法让人赞成我的理念，我还蛮失望的。。

最近心情不好的时候，好像也没人可以诉苦了。

只好默默地安静起来，或打给Phiksan，叫她约些朋友去喝个茶。。

我也希望我能把不开心的表情写在脸上，但是每次都迎来“你生病了吗？”的问候，

而不是“你怎么了？心情不好吗？”

如果一个人，就练练歌，毕竟this summer 有人跟我说，

"Dont give up singing, since that is what u do best"

What you do best - 这句话还蛮重的。。

可笑吧，我从小直到中学年年榜上有名，

也得了还不错的奖学金，考进了很好的大学，

练着一个蛮好的经济学。。

从小打羽毛球，算一算也打了 18 年。。也算是小有成就。。

唱歌也不就是5年前才开始的。。

居然现在我的“best” 是Singing。。。

但是也没不好啦，至少我靠着唱歌，“骗” 到了蛮多福利。。

但又认真想一想，还蛮可笑的可悲。。

p/s: I tried using Google translator to translate this piece into English (in case you are cannot read Chinese). But it turned out to be the funniest joke ever. So i've decided to remove it. With that said, if you have nothing better to do and decided to read something funny, translate this whole post into English. It's dumb, i promise.

2010-10-14T22:44:00.002-05:00

Weird…

So I have this unique lamp that I got it from my senior. It is a very nice lamp because it is “touch-sensor” kind of lamp, which means you need to touch the lamp to turn it on. In other words, if you don’t touch on the lamp, it will not be switched on.

And I have this habit of turning off all the light sources before I sleep- I can’t really well with any lights on. I did the same three every night but something strange happened four nights ago. In fact, it happened three nights in a row. I woke up in the morning and realized that the light was turned on!! The first morning, I thought it might be that I forgot to turn it off. The second morning , I thought it might be because I was too tired that I dozed off without realizing the light was on. But the third morning, I really did not have any excuses for it anymore.

I asked my housemates if they were making any pranks on me, but they swore they didn’t. *well, kinda lame to this kind of joke right?* So, tell me what did happen for three nights in a row? T_T

#1: The mysterious lamp

On contrary, today I wasn’t really happy at all. I did a presentation for my Performance class. I did it really last minute and I ended up didn’t memorizing it. So during the presentation, I was reading on my notes and did badly. It was an acting class, but I basically read through my notes. Worst still, the class was quite after my presentation when they were supposed to be giving me their opinions. Fml. And I guess I had this tendency to use my Malaysian accent when I am nervous, which ended up making my presentation even worse. Fml. Fml.

Funny thing is, I kept thinking of my dismay performance even up till now. Super disturbed with that.

2010-10-13T02:23:00.002-05:00

Betrayed

I think in any way, i was betrayed - whether i like it or not.

I discussed a great plan with a classmate, only to know that he shared it with the professor and claimed the idea to be his.

I discussed about my future plans with a friend whom i "used" to trust, only to realize that he treated that as a pile of shit.

But what can i do? I can only smile and pretend nothing happen, and plan for a greater comeback. fml. fml. again.

2010-10-10T21:37:00.007-05:00

Second Week Oh-So-Fun

So I had a great second week. Despite work starting to roll in, I did really enjoy my second week of my Senior Year. And yes, it feels good to be a Senior *ehem ehem*

It all started when I went to the Pub with Godfather Greg and Jicey and Wilcey. Well, that was actually my first time stepping into the University Pub. We drank for a bit and played drinking games. Instead of drinking, we actually bet on Jalapeno peppers if we lost the game. And those peppers are utterly insane.

Next morning, I went for UChicago HomeComing. According to Vince, it is the day when our University hosted the first Home coming. Well, again, this is my very first time doing this, and probably my last time. We went as early as 10.40am in order to get the limited free-homecoming-t-shirt.

#1: At the entrance

#2: Go Maroons

#3: It was also a sort of “picnic” day

#4: Group picture (L-R) Wilson, Vincent, Mara, Mr Phoenix, Yi-Ping, Jisook

After HomeComing, I went back home and prepared myself for the Malaysia Chicago Club Gala Dinner. I have been here for the last three years and never know such club exists! Shame on me. The best part of this Gala Dinner is, all food is provided FREE of CHARGE! Fully Sponsored! Yes, free. If that is not enough, we were entertained with very good Shao Lin Kung Fu performance. And also, they gave out 7 Ipods and 1 Ipad as lucky draw. (Obviously I didn’t win any fml)

#6 : NJ with Vincent L. I suspect NJ is secretly in love with Vincent because she has been saying Vincent “semakin handsome” since second year. And no, I am not jealous. At all.

#7: Me with NJ. Fav picture of the night probably

#8: Again, Malaysia Boleh!

It was quite embarrassing because our table was so loud yesterday night. Tanuja won herself a Ipod Nano and we actually cheered as if she won a gold medal. When they were calling out the numbers, our table never fail to say the winner wasn’t here. However, it was a night outing with the other Malaysians. In fact, I met a Malaysian who recently opened a badminton court in Chicago and he is willing to give me FREE RENTAL. Woohoo~

2010-10-03T11:35:00.012-05:00

Summer 2010 - Siem Reap

Back to my summer 2010 trip - Siem Reap, Cambodia. I didn't explore Cambodia as much as the main objective of this trip is to visit the majestic Angkor Wat.

Everything in Cambodia is pretty cheap. Instead of hiring a tuk-tuk to bring us around, we actually had a "private driver" and a "private car" to bring us around the city of Siem Reap. And it is not really that expensive too. For a two and a half day trip, it only cost about USD 18 per person after tax, not a bad deal after all.

We flew into Phnom Penh from Singapore and upon arrival, we took a cab/car to Siem Reap which took us about 5 hours. *ok, this part is abit tiring* Once we were at Siem Reap, we went to straight for lunch at the "Old Market" area. The cafe that we went to is called as "Blue Pumpkin". It is a very "touristy" cafe because everything here is very clean and expensive. *our tour guide said we should not try anything by the street to avoid food poisoning, wtf*

#1 : Blue Pumpkin with Lio

After Blue Pumpkin, we went into the Old Market for a walk. Well, it doesn't look any different from the wet market that we have in Malaysia except there might be more souvenir stalls here. So, we decided to go for a massage since we had nothing better to do. And massaging in Siem Reap is really cheap. Probably about RM 20 for an hour massage. Then, after massage, we went for dinner at this very nice 4-star hotel restaurant. The buffet dinner was accompanied by traditional Cambodian dance.

#2: The dancers, apparently one of them is my tour guide fiancee
#3: We took a group picture with the dancers

The next morning, we went to the Floating Village of Siem Reap. Well, it wasn't anything spectacular but we were just checking it out since it was on the "must-do-list". I drove the boat for a little bit on our way to the floating village and it was clearly a bad idea because i made the guys a pretty wet.

#4: Look at the terrified face of the kids behind me :p

#5: With our guide at the fishing village who likes to tell us about his wild sex life in Cambodia

#6: With a giant snake, ok my hands were trembling for a bit

After the floating village, we went to this War Museum. Again, i never really like to visit War Museum because i really think that all the War Museum are the same. 看来看去都是一样的. But the one here is actually not bad because it was a outdoor museum.

#7: Since i never went to NS, i guess this will be my consolation , fml

Next, we went into the "temple region" where all the temples are located. We first went Bayon *i might be wrong* to take the sunset view. But the weather was really cloudy so we couldn't really get any nice view.

#8: At the entrance of Bayon
#9: At the top of Bayon temple

Yeap, so we did that much stuff on the first day of our trip. It was fun but very much sleep depriving because we woke up at 4am that morning as our flights were at 7am.

2010-10-01T00:53:00.002-05:00

I was just trying to help...

Thursday, mark the end of week. No class on Friday.

I worked for my last shift in OMSA. I quit my job to concentrate on my studies, and to focus on doing my recruiting. I want to have the experience of going through all this recruiting nonsense so that it completes my education in Chicago.

So, my last shift ended really badly. I was working on a brand new Macbook Pro - and the worse happened. I left it on the Table after using it and it got stolen. Boom, USD 1800 gone within 5 minutes. And policeman came, and took my statement. I felt really bad. It wasn't entirely my fault, but well, i was the last person to touch the brand new Macbook Pro. fml.

Tomorrow i am going for career fair, hope it is going to be a good experience for me. In the afternoon, i will be taking part in the UChicago Close Ranking Tournament.

Praying that my life will be better next week. From now on, i think i will want to post something up every day just so that this blog will be meaningful after all. Well, again, i wish i am able to sustain this spirit and continue updating this blog, even with a short dry post every day.

No Singalions, but time to turn to others for help!

2010-09-29T22:35:00.002-05:00

I am now..

..trying to decide what class to take.

..trying to get rid of my jet-lag that has been bugging me

..trying to figure out if i should be in Vegas or Europe this winter break

..trying to think if i should work on campus for extra money

..watching a new drama which i don't really enjoy watching

..anticipating every Tuesday to come so that i can watch Glee *my house got cable now*

..trying to calm myself down and tell myself that grades are not everything

..trying to revive this blog but i am sleepy all the time , so fml

..missing all the Singa kids *yes, life without you guys is boring here*

2010-09-23T11:42:00.001-05:00

Those Simple Little Things That Make You Happy…

So, my summer is coming to an end, with only 3 days to go. I got an extra 12 hours since I am flying back to the States. This summer has been great because I learnt a lot about life. Well, never really experience any life-changing moments/lessons but those little things that happened around me makes me view things with a broader prospective now.

Yesterday, I met up with Dennis, a senior of mine whom I have not seen him for the past 6 years. Yes, 6 freaking long years. We chatted quite a lot but the curiosity in me prompted me to bug him on why he chose to come back to Malaysia. He said going to Carrefour at 9.30pm and still see so many people in the mall is already a valid reason for him to come back. Yes, although this excuse might seems too hilarious for many people, but I can totally understand that thought of his. This summer, I chose to intern instead of staying home or staying in Chicago. Initially, it was fun. You know, working in the office from 9am-6pm is nice to begin with. But going into my second week, reality started to hit me when I realized I was all alone when I desperately need someone to eat dinner with me. The loneliness was the scariest feeling I ever feel for a long time.

So today, I went out with Jasong for a chat. Well, it has been a long time since we both had a great talk one on one. After sending him back, I felt a little bit hungry and decided to go home first, just in case my mum already bought food for me.

As I opened the door, my dad asked me to go to the kitchen to have my dinner. I open the cover and saw only two dishes with a bottle of sambal (Malaysian chilli sauce). My mum steamed a fish and fried an egg for me. They were so simple, but yet, I appreciate it so much. They are so simple yet so special for me.

Ok, maybe this post came at the wrong time because I am leaving Malaysia soon so I guess it is always natural for me to be more emotional. But what I am trying to reach is that, at times, we do not need very material stuff to be happy (of course, once in a while need la). But we also have to remember, there are a lot of little things around us that can make us happy for a longer period of time.

#1: The simple meal is enough to make me smiling the whole evening

Take Dennis as example, he is happy to see people in Carrefour at 9.30pm, much happier than him earning big money in UK. I am happy eating those home cooked dinner specially prepared by my mum rather than spending big money in restaurants. The thought that counts, I believe for the first time.

2010-09-15T08:42:00.007-05:00

Singapore 2010..

Recently, more and more friends went to Singapore to work or to further their studies, with Chin Jin being the latest person to do so. He was offered to be an instructor in SMU but he is currently waiting for a reply from an auditing firm. This makes me wonder again why is everyone trying to escape to Singapore?! Well, I guess I myself know the answer very well.

So, before my trip to Vietnam, I made a short trip to this little island.(again) It was fruitful I would say because I did quite a lot of stuff in just 2 days. It wasn't my first time to Singapore but every time i go there, i find myself liking this city a little bit more. Read, i say i like the city. CITY.

#1: I finally tried the infamous Singapore Chilli Crab (this is from Jumbo btw)
Thoughts : Well, I’ve tasted better crabs this summer. Kepong one is much better and of course, 10x cheaper

#2: Visited the wuwu-gaga Resort World
Thoughts: The hotels are nice. The casino is definitely much nicer than the one in Genting. Another attempt of us offering better things to other nations.. fol..

#3: Visited Universal Studio Singapore *well, didn’t really go in because the weather was too hot and never really not intended to do so*
Thought : It is very well maintained (of course since it is still very new), but the weather can be too hot

#4: Universal Studio Singapore – the Gate

#5: Visited Siloso Beach
Thought: It is a nice hangout place for young people. Really envy the Singaporeans because they can easily access to the beach because everything is so close to each other.

Besides, I also had a nice and sweet dinner with cousins. No pictures taken because everyone was too busy eating. But it was always nice to catch up with each other after several years of not seeing each other. The funniest thing is, all of us are pretty tight on facebook but not in real life. LOL.

Singapore is nice. No doubt, look at how many local talents are pulled there. Yeow said this to me this afternoon, “Jay Sern, 想都别想啦！”(Don’t even need to think (of going to Singapore)) fml.

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On a side note, I’m actually back in BP, Johor, Malaysia. Didn’t really update my blog because I am currently using mobile broandband which has a cap of usage on it. Argh, cannot wait to go back and use the uber fast internet connection.

And this summer, i realized i am easily annoyed with two kind of people:-
Type 1 - Always play with his/her phone when a bunch of friends is hanging out together
Type 2 - Never reply to my message when he/she knows i am expecting for it

Ok, sometimes, i can be pretty anal towards these little things.

And countdown, 3 days more to go before i fly back to Chicago. Nervous yet do not know what to expect. Days without the Singalion kids. How?

2010-09-03T11:23:00.002-05:00

In Vietnam now..

I am pretty much still very happy doing my SEA tour. I am currently in Hanoi which is the last stop of my vacation. Siem Reap was amazing. Ho Chin Minh is sunny and very memorable. Keeping my fingers crossed that my USD 120 Halong Bay your will be amazing as well.

I miss home a bit. And i miss Chicago too. Kam Bum *in Vietnamese*

2010-08-24T13:07:00.003-05:00

I went to watch "The Last Airbender" with Yeow today. Well, the movie itself is not that bad. But if you are comparing this to Inception or The Expandables, the i will think this movie is really bad , at least for people of my age range.

The plot is very kiddy and the graphic isn't that amazing. But if you are huge fans of movie of these kind (say Narnia and etc.), then spending some money to watch this movie isnt really a bad choice. By the way, i paid RM6 (probably about USD1.80) because of student price and we occupied the entire cinema!! But i will give this moving a 6/10 rating.

Then at night, went to YuPin house for K-ing session. It went pretty well, at least not that intimidated by their strong genes in singing. But after talking to him and get to know more about the music industry, it seems like it wasn't that easy after all.

Fyone is signed with Astro but it seems like there are many uncertainties ahead. And I hate uncertainties. So, maybe i should focus on my freelancing job and stick to my banker's path.

Ok, i am supposed to go Singapore tomorrow but since i have not started packing, i have decided to go on Thursday instead. That is life. I decide what i want. I control my life. *actually, the purpose of this post is to convey the last few sentences, but i dont want my post to start and end with these abrupt phrases*

2010-08-22T08:30:00.000-05:00

Of my internship

Yes, it has been two weeks since I’m done with my internship stint with Accenture. I did my internship for a total of 8 weeks and it was indeed a very good experience.

I was placed in the client’s site, so I didn’t get to work in KLCC as much. But then, I love Dayabumi because it is so near to Petaling Street and the Accenture people who work in Dayabumi are super super nice! We went out for lunch almost every day and they never really treat me as an intern, but a friend. So nice can cry la, cos normally people treats interns as cheap labor!!

Well, these people are not actually from my team. Since my team was really small, I had no one to eat lunch with me if most of them( my project mates) have their own lunch plans. So basically these cool people from other team “adopted” me for their lunch plans every day. *much appreciated, thanks to all of you, if not I will be a loner*

In terms of my work, I would say they were very challenging. Yes, I did work till 10-11pm once in a while but most of the time, I was able to finish up my work on time. My supervisor is very nice to me too. My boss is also pretty helpful *especially with writing my reference letter  * However, I will have to say, this is not the kind of job that I am looking for. It is not that this job is boring or whats not, but I just feel that I don’t really enjoy doing what I was assigned too.

# 1: With Ilham, my beloved supervisor

But nonetheless, I really enjoy working with the people here. At least, I feel so much appreciated working with them. I guess the feeling of being appreciated is very very important. Everyone loves to be appreciated. Right?

And the best part is, I was actually invited for the Annual Dinner and Dance. Most interns didn’t get to go because the project would have to pay if they want the intern to go. However, my boss was nice enough to invite me for AD&D. So nice one can. And the best part of this dinner is, everyone dressed up according to the theme. And this year, the theme was “Friday the 13th”. Thus, you should know how what did we dress up like.

#2 : In Choon How’s house. Thanks to his huge mirror, we are able to be done with our preparations on time.

#3 : With my sifu – Richard. He basically helped me the most during my internship!
*may u get promoted soon because you totally deserve it*

# 4: Group picture during AD&D

# 5: With Yvonne , one of the very nice manager in Accenture and (her doll)

#6: One of my colleagues who likes to bully me. I shall not say which one. You decide
*p/s : haha, now no more intern, see who can u bully now!!!!! =p *

#7: Richard and Joseph

#8: This is my boss, Colin, who performed during AD&D. How cool is that! Btw, he is a very good dancer.

I will say, my stint with Accenture has thought me a lot. I’m really grateful to all there who had been offering me with their helps! Again special thanks to Richard for all your help with the “non so complicated” Microsoft Sharepoint, Esther for being my lunch buddy, Ilham for your nice guidance, Prashanth and Aiman for your advises, Colin for your great guidance too.

2010-08-18T11:49:00.003-05:00

I think...

I think i don't like people saying that i am "kiasu" or "kiasi",

Rather, "don't like" might be an understatement - hate might be a more appropriate word,

OK, maybe I might appear to be one,

But I know i am not, or maybe not entirely kiasu and kiasi. wtf.

On contrary, i don't think there is anything wrong for being kiasu and kiasi.

At least that what drive people to success.

Look at our neighbor, they are well known for these traits.

And undeniable, they are very successful right now.

But again, can anyone please turn these terms "kiasu" and "kiasi" to positive connotations?

So that i won't be that pissed when i am labeled as one?

But again, who is not kiasu and kiasi? fyl.

p/s : kia - scared of in hokkien, su - lose in hokkien, si - die in hokkien . Thus, kiasu = scared of losing in Hokkien and kiasi=scared of dying in Hokkien.